Just reach home not long ago. Work was alright. Kinda boring. Reached there around 9.30am. Was asked to tag the price tags on those not yet tagged. It was kinda fun. Haha. Then later me & Jilly went to ask around for work to do. So we were asked to do cashier stuffs. Scanning the barcodes of the products and keying in their names & prices. When the Sitex exhibition started, we all were placed at different places to 'promote' the items. I was promoting Imation thumbdrives. So boring plzzz.

After work went to Simpang with Daiyu & Chin Han to meet Mitchell, Aldie & Shaik. Slacked there for awhile, talked about some stuffs. Then waited for Aldie's mum to fetch him. They offered me a ride home. Haha. K, done Bye.

There you go contradicting on your insolent thoughts. Choke on your forked tongue as you lie to me again. A sinner or is that just another mistake you've sculpted? Were those talks of shameless sweet nothings merely a routine? You retaliate to hide what you always knew, you fought to live for only the broken pieces. Pick the shards and you break the skin. A plastered wond or a sheath for coverage? Turned away from the unseen fotages, live to die for the eventual darkness. I bet you never knew what you've always dreamed, like a masquerade behind your pretty face. The scars will turn us into strangers, the facade will prove us eventual bitterness.

Can I say I love you? Will you be my kiss for every disaster? In this legacy, you were my once broken mess. Slaughtered and undone were the laces of our wreckage. Am I your slave for independence or an insult to your fears? Like an infection you spread, choking on my bitter thoughts. Will you be my antidote for all the pain in this life? Are you the cure for this dying cancer? Now, let me bleed on your porch for the last time as I choke on my own appetite for love, lust and hatred. Taste this pale lips and place me back on this half-empty shelf. Where once you took this broken heart and showered it with affection. Where twice you chunked this lump of flesh and deemed it as a collection. Where thrice you leave it dying, proven the love of rejection. I'll be in your memory. Your never-forsaken dying memory.

Just came back from Peer Leader camp. That's why there were no updates la, Xiang. Lol. Camp was alright la. Don't wanna elaborate, too lazy. Maybe go find a Sec1's blog or smth. If you really wanna know. Haha. Anyways, I will be starting work at the Sitex exhibition tmr. Like, I'm so tired. ):

Didn't sleep well during the camp at all. First night, slept for I think 2 hrs only. Watched Stay Alive in the teacher's lounge la. Then in the end only me and Zakiah were left awake? Everyone else fell asleep. Haha.

Second night was too tired. After the movie screening, The Unborn, which I slept right through, I headed to the teacher's lounge to rest. Head was pounding since the first day alrdy. Couldn't take it. Ended up falling asleep. Haha. And the best part is I don't even remember anything when i woke up. Like, weird.

So yea, will be working from 9.30am to late. I don't know how I'm gonna take it. Hope I don't feel weak. No mood to blog alrdy. Bye.

Okay, since i'm bored but don't feel like blogging cos i practically did the same thing other then meeting up with Dy, Sherman, Shaik, Gabriel, Aldie, Bullu for dinner at Simpang after work.. I shall do this, MEME. Lol, quiz la.

Okay so heres the deal. You look it over and see how many of these things you have done, BUT you have to add up the money amount along the way.

had sex-- $20
smoked-- $12
got drunk-- $21
went skinny dipping-- $10
kissed someone of the opposite sex-- $1
had more than one bf/gf at the sametime--$3
cheated-- $2
fell asleep in class-- $0.50
cheated on a quiz-- $5
been expelled-- $1
been in a fist fight-- $2
done oral-- $18
got oral-- $10
prank called the cops-- $1
stole something-- $10
done drugs-- $12
dyed your hair-- $10
done something with someone older-- $2
went out with someone OVER 18 if you're under 18--$3
ate a whole thing of oreos-- $1
cried yourself to sleep-- $5
said you love someone but didnt mean it--$2
been in love-- $2
got caught doing something that you shouldnt have been doing-- $7
went streaking-- $10
got arrested-- $1
madeout with someone at the movies-- $6
peed in the pool-- $10
played spin the bottle-- $5
done something you regret-- $5
had sex with more than one person-- $9
been to NYC drunk or stoned-- $8
owned your own car-- $10
had a job for more than 2 months-- $20

lol, i got $149.50

23 November 2006, Thursday.
Went for work from 10am-4pm. Can't remember how it was, okay i think.. Then went home. Went out again around 6pm to fetch mother from work then went to the Night Safari! Haha! It's damn fun. I could actually see animals. Lol. Took the tram, walking trails, watched some performances. ATE BEN&JERRY'S! LIKE YAY PLZ. CHUNKY MUNKEY ROCKS. :DD

24 November 2006, Friday
2nd day @ work. I'm like fcuking tired. beat. bushed. whatever you call it. different word, same shit. Work was damn tiring today. Cuz it was like from 12pm - 6pm. Getting used to the environment alrdy, AND people (-.-). But today there was this freaking KS (kill steal - like, your job but then she kapo wanna do cuz easy) aunty. I was so fed-up with her la! Like, she practically stole my customers can! Prrfftt. Go die plzzzzz.

Woke up kinda late, but like didn't bother to rush. Reached there like 10mins late. Not too bad la. Started, like abit bored. Then they didn't let us eat until like 3 plus, coming 4. And our lunch break was supposed to be at 2.30pm. Smart eh? So yea, ate crappy food la. So vomit-able. I ate like, 5 spoonfuls. Didn't wanna eat anymore.

Then Alann came! Life-saviour. Hahahaha. He's damn nice la, i like him. Amongst all the bosses, he's the best (& oldest). Me and Luci told him about our 'camp'. Hehe. Cuz I got all of us another better paying job as a cashier, $60/day. So yea, I won't be going for work for 7 whole days & Luci won't be going for 4 days. So exciting. I can't wait, Luci Jill Me Daiyu ChinHan. YAY!

He was damn helpful, Alann i mean.. He even did like whatever we were supposed to do. So nice?! He talked to me and Luci about his previous job, @ Michael Angelo's. Damn cool plzzz. Soon, our shift was over. Then we saw civilisation! There were 2 other 15 year olds working there too! Taking the 11pm - 3am shift. Coooool.

After work, me & Luci went to Taka to eat Yakitori. That place was so god-damned crowded. We had to end up sitting at ledges eating our dinner. Like, cacat plzzz. Haha! After eating, walked around Taka & Wisma. Slacked at Bk @ Shaw then went home. Damn tired.

Until we see this eye to eye

you know what? cup noodles and tuna is the best thing on earth. like, seriously! haha, i've been eating that as my midnight 'snack' like every other day now. and well, for lunches when i have no money and decide to come home for it. yea, tuna and cup noodles. rock.

so yea, i kinda just came home from work. early right. hahaa. cos me and luci only had work from 10am to 2pm. yeah, it was okay la. but we couldn't stand those old aunties that were 'senoirs' like wtf? they were practically bossing us around, asking us to do the dirty jobs. so irritating. but i will tahan. haha. tmrw we've got work again. this time from 12pm to 6pm. so yea, good luck to us!

okay, going back to my cup noodles and tuna. byebye!

sorray. i havent been blogging. i know i know. you're all saddddd. hehehehehe. ok, shaddup. -.-

anyways, yesterday. woke up. slacked and check out some jobs online. no good ones. so i decided to go for the interviews that i had in mind. since no one wanted to accompany me and i was feeling damn fedup alrdy so i just decided to go by myself. i told myself i had to be independant. if i were to wait around for ppl, i will not get what i want. so yea, bathed and all. then when i was changing halfway, luciana called me. told me she and jilly were at town. asked me to come down. so ok, i met them around 3pm? yea, walked around abit. i really missed them both! omgomg. then they accompanied me to the agencies. filled up forms then they all said they'll call us back. so yea, went to slack at McCafe. after awhile, my sis called and asked me to meet her at Rocky Masters at Cine. so jilly, me, luci walked to cine from shaw. then jilly went home. me and luci were suddenly damn desperate to find a job. so we walked the whole of cine asking for a job. lol. so yea, we finally found a job! yay. heh. took train back after awhile. met mum at spore post to eat. home. then talked to luci on the phone from like 12am to 4.30am? i couldn't sleep after that. think i finally fell asleep around 5.30am.

today.. woke up at 12pm. lazed around then finally deiceded to do my IC with my sis. cos she needed to change her passport photo. so yea, went to lavender. waited, not very long. the photo sucked. like, shiat. nevermind. i didn't wanna retake. so yea, stuck with it. after that, went to meet dy at school bus stop. he picked me up with an umbrella with chin han. haha. watched snakes on a plane at his house. simpang for dinner with aldie, shaik, luci, dy. home. im damn tired. tmrw will be starting work. like, yay! hahaha. :DDDD

oh, im so loved!

aldieҳ says:
alyssa is pretty , sexy , beautiful , lovely , glamourous , SHES the 8 WORLD WONDER! OK

heh, ok. byebyebye.

Alyssa says:
hello, entertain me not nadhatta.

You have just sent a Nudge!

Luciana says:
she bully me

Luciana says:
she bully baby

Alyssa says:
why.. what she say.. tell mamy.

Alyssa says:
ooi, tell me la.

Alyssa says:
WAH LAU.

Alyssa says:
entertain leh!

Luciana says:
LOL

Luciana says:
wait

Luciana says:
(P.S she made it up, meaning she typed it down here.)
three flights up says:
you're damn pretty
Luciana says:
really?
three flights up says:
yes. can i be your boyfriend?
Luciana says:
what? no way. you're damn ugly
three flights up says:
but i love you..
Luciana says:
NO. GO AWAY.

Luciana says:
hehe

Luciana says:
(this was what was being said in luci's&nad's convo)
Luciana says:
she bully me
Luciana says:
she bully baby
three flights up says:
-.-

Alyssa says:
i complained to her.

Alyssa says:
orh horrrr..

Luciana says:
yes

Luciana says:
she told me

Luciana says:
YOU!

Alyssa says:
what?!

Luciana says:
BETRAYER!

Alyssa says:
sosososososo?!

Luciana says:
so

Luciana says:
baby's gonna. burst out in tears

Alyssa says:
burst la.

Alyssa says:
are you like a bubble baby?

Alyssa says:
hehe, that'll be fun.

Luciana says:
bubbles!

Luciana says:
baby likes bubbles

Alyssa says:
ok.. good for you.

Alyssa says:
un-baby.

Luciana says:
LOL

Luciana says:
you're damn dumb

Luciana says:
theres no such word

Alyssa says:
LOOK WHO'S TALKING?

Alyssa says:
yea, i made it up?

Alyssa says:
SO?!

Luciana says:
):

Luciana says:
scold baby

Alyssa says:
yea, im scolding. SO?!

Luciana says:
so

Luciana says:
baby's gonna

Luciana says:
burst out in tears

Alyssa says:
-.- baby's stupid.

Alyssa says:
(what i said earlier)
Alyssa says:
burst la.

Alyssa says:
don't understand ah?

1. Where do you hang your towel to dry after showering?
er, on the metal thingy? what's it called again..

2. What kind of mouse pad do you have?
lol, a cacat one.

3. Do you brush your hair with a comb or a brush?
what's the diff? =/

4. From your opinion, who do you think is the hottest celeberity?
omg? so many la! cannot cannot. later the post very ugly.

5. You got a project due tomorrow, do you use tape or glue?
tape. although more work to be done, i'd rather a nice project.

6. Chicken or pork?
depends. but more to chicken.

7. By the time you get to school/work, is the sky still dark?
huh? i don't understand the question.. lol.

8. If you had a choice to see a unicorn or mermaid which would it be?
mermaid, water's always nicer.

9. What was in your bag the last time you went out?
erm. wallet, hp, ipod, tissue, organiser.

10. What time does the sun usually set?
not sure, 5 plus 6?

11. What do you think of last before you go to sleep?
'omg, such a nice bed i have!' * smells pillow. LOL.

12. AC or fan?
AIRCON. im a fan of it. thanks.

13. Do you wear braces?
nopes.

14. Can you hand stand?
omg, no. i want to! but so embarrassing to try. haha!

15. If you were the opposite sex, how would you style your hair?
omg, like shag pls! haha. long fringe, sideways. SHIAT!

16. What level math are you in?
exactly, got such thing ah?

17. Jessica Simpson or Alba?
ALBA, omg! hothothothotheattttt..

18. Which subject is worst, English or Math?
MATH, hands down!

19. What's one thing you really want to do this very moment?
err, feast on some lays sour cream & onion..

20. After buying something, do you automatically throw it away?
ERR, NO!

21. CD player or iPod?
IPOD LA! duh~

22. Would you rather spin upside down goin 30 miles or drop 400 ft. into water?
spin upside down. drop into water, i'll die of shock pls. lol.

24. What you got planned for the weekend?
pathetically, nothing. ):

25. Have you ever gone ice skating?
yesssshh!

26. If you were put in a room with nothing except for a pencil and paper what would you do?
um. draw?! haha. yeaballz.

27. Is it always easy finding your remote everytime you want to watch TV?
i think..

28. How was your day?
alright, kinda boring la. what's new..

29. Do you grow your nails, bite or cut them?
grow, then cut. lol.

30. Describe your handwritting:
hm, medium & pretty. lol!

31. Do you consider yourself a stalker?
heh. no. but i get stalked often.

32. Do you bruise easily?
yehh, but no marks.

33. There's nothing on TV except Barney and Japanese news what do you do?
off the tv la! DOH~!

34. Do you know more than 3 friendster codes?
html? guess so.

35. You got an essay due, you either can type or write in pen, which will it be?
type. faster. and nicer.

36. Do you wear jeans to relax at home?
crazy ah. never.

37. Describe yourself using one word:
narcissist?

38. Do you think bestfriends make the best lovers?
not really. well, depends actually.

39. Do you like ice in your drink?
yes, please! with cherries on top!

40. Do you have abs?
hehe, yesyesyes. LOL.

What is the best nickname that u ever had?
uhh, a lizard. i think it's so creative. lol.

Do you think suicide is the best way?
sometimes.

Rate your social life from scale 1 to 10?
8

Are you in love with someone at the moment?
yeahhhhh..

Are you missing someone at the moment?
not really. cos like, yea la i dont wanna tell you la.

Would you die for the one you love?
yes, i guess.

Whats the best thing about love?
someone being there for you that you know you can rely on no matter what.

Whats the worst thing about love?
parting?

Will you wait for someone you love?
of course.

What song that best describes your love life at the moment?
i donno.

Do you wanna get married?
yeh, duh..

Do you keep memories or try to forget them?
depends. although memories are meant to be kept..

What are you going to do today/tomorrow?
donno. i play by ear.

Do you play an instrument?
does flute count?! lol.

Have you writen your own song?
when i start singing randomly, yeah. HEH!

What movie did you last watch?
step up!

Do you believe in love forever?
yea, kinda..

What song is in your mind rite now?
the fray - how to save a life. ALL TIME FAVOURITE.

haha. new skin babey.

so what you nonsensical, immature freaks gonna say about me now huh?
oooooo, im sooo scared. sheesh.

yea, im a bloody copycat la! wah lau eh. i RIPPED this skin of luciana yuka sihui chong. omgomgomg. i feel damn kanchiong now. waaaaa. im gonna be a SINNER lehhhzzzzz. howz howz?! loool. i feel, random.

P.S it was meant to be sarcastic. :D

anyway, to ya'll who visit luci's blog, please do not believe the crap she posted at her comments. cos she typed the whole thing out by herself. damn stupid right? haha. mine are all true la. don't need to waste my energy typing. haha. i've got another of luci's dirty little secret. she told me, on msn. at around.. 17.34 on 20th November 2006.

Luciana says:
yay
Luciana says:
my armpits damn smelly
Luciana says:
i went to use my finger to wipe then lick it

Alyssa says:
ok, good for you.
Alyssa says:
going on my blog.
Alyssa says:
thanks!
Alyssa says:
((:
Alyssa says:
you're a sweetie. muacks.

Luciana says:
WALAO
Luciana says:
YOU'RE DAMN WHAT LA

lol, she's damn sick right? i know. omg, please don't ever be friends with her. tschk.

blogging babey :D
so today, was an alright/happy day.

actually, im kinda lazy to blog laaaaaaa.
so yahhhh.

wake up, brush teeth.
warm up the lontong dady bought.
eat halfway, realised it was spoiled.
threw it away. painted nails - RED.

talked to luci on the phone,
she misses me & nadhatta.
looooooooooooooooools.

bathe, change got ready.
late on meeting dy at paya lebar.
sorraaay. headed to simlim sq.
interview at hipfill for sitex.
got the job, but pay damn lousyyy.

watched movie at bugis, step up.
so lag, i know. shaddup.
nadhatta gave me the movie but i didnt watch.
lol. waste money ah.
but big screen nicer. heh.

after movie. ate at ajisen.
took train home. met his sis.
lalala. done. kbye.

hello? so what if i didn't credit? does that make me a cheapskate whore? like, haha! you don't have a link to what you're saying.. and yea, i got this blogskin off blogskins.com so what? doesn't everyone do that? tell me someone who doesn't, other then blogskin makers. why are you jealous that i got this blogskin off there? and i didn't RIP it, for god's sake. what a bloody loser you are. calling me one, rmbr that it takes one to know one? and in what ways do i imitate celeste chen? she wears like, jeans shorts plus heels to town. i dont. and tammy tay? i know nuts about her. other then she's a blogskin maker. what right do you have to comment about my bf? well, we'll see la. when he gets his results.. not like you can tell the future.. why are you so hard up on me leaving credits behind? if you think they're that impt, why didn't you leave your name behind? same concept what! haha. oh wait, i forgot, you're a loser. pardon me for my mistake. i dont think blogskin makers are that childish to stoop down so low as to tag on my tagboard anonymously. so why do you even bother when the blogskin maker doesn't? puh-lease. if you wanna tell me things, dont do it through a bloody tagboard. do it in my face please. and thanks for visiting, giving me hits :D

oh, and btw, look at my bf's skin. aren't you oh-so-angry? HAHA!

that's luciana for you.

with love my babe. heh :D

sorry for the lack of updates, have been too bored/lazy to blog. :D

so today i went for my GUESS interview.
woke up at 9am and went online to check out the address.
called luciana but that lazy BIATCH didnt want to wake up!!
so i cracked my head on who to call and ended up calling april.

waited for her to get ready and met her at paya lebar mrt around 11.30
reached orchard mrt at around 12pm.
was alrdy late cos the person said interview from 9am-12pm only.
looked around for the bus stop we were supposed to take bus from.
with a map! i printed it from streetdirectory.com hehe!

finally found the bus stop.
waited for the bus which we were supposed to stop 2 bus stops away.
then, came the great challenge!
the walk from the bus stop, to fj benjamins itself.
omggggg, like so tiring please!

reached there, we weren't the only ones.
april filled up the form for the interview also.
and went for it.

we ate at pepperlunch after that.
it's damn nice. i so love it.
it's like teppenyaki, only slightly cheaper!

talked for damn long then decided to walk around shaw.
walked walked walked.
pacific plaza, mango, fareast.

finally met joy, jh, mels at heeren.
me and joy were damn bored and tired.
she was damn high.
i felt like slapping her. =x

and she was ranting about her date.
hahah! damn funny. she's so kanchiong.
slacked at starbucks.
saw celestechen at heeren. lala.

HOME. tired, like shattttt.

today, you all are lucky.
cos im gonna introduce to you some cute/hot ppl.
HEEEEZ! so exciting! :DDDDD

firstly, meet kelen! (credits to nadiahatta)

next, meet my cute neighbours, ella-jane may & jack may!
ah, i wanna smack them cos they're so cute!!

actually, got another cuter video!
but it's too big for youtube.
anyone know of any other way i can upload it?
please tell me!!

lalalala. i think im turning like, BISEXUAL.
as in, seriously.

i want a girl with lips like morphine, kisses that crush and break me down.

shittt. ok. i, alyssa roxanne seah, am not bisexual.
(i think).

anywoos. tmr im going to msia.
for church camp! at majodi center.
the food there is like, damn great.
all home-cooked.
(better then sebana cove)

hehehehe.

aw, dont be jealous.
dont miss me ya'll.
i'll be back on monday evening.

so ya, today i went to school.
it was a bore.
and i used my organiser alrdy.
and gave luci the stickers.
see, i share.. (:

i even gave my sis some ok.
shows how kind i am.
ate at dalu.
the western food aunty is scary.

okies, byebyebye.
shall blog again when im, bored. ha!

1. Smoked before
2. Drunk alcohol before
3. Slept with someone of the opposite sex
4. Slept with someone of the same sex
5. Gotten into any fights
6. Kissed someone of the opposite sex
7. Kissed someone of the same sex
8. Had someone in your room of the opposite sex
9. Scolded vulgarities
10. Bought porn
11. Take drugs before medicine
12. Hate going to the doctor's
13. Lied to your parents
14. Lied to a friend
15. Snuck out of the house
16. Done something illegal (lol, jay-walking)
17. Cut yourself
18. Hurt someone
19. Wished someone to die
20. Seen someone die
21. Missed curfew
22. Stayed up all night
23. Eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself
24. Been to a therapis
25. Been to a rehab
26. Dyed your hair
27. Received a ticket
28. Been in a wreck
29. Been to a club
30. Been to a bar
31. Been to a wild party
32. Seen the Mardi Gras
33. Had a fight
34. Had a spring break in Florida
35. Sniffed anything
36. Wore black nail polish
37. Wore wristbands
39. Wore black eyeliner
40. Own a 50 cent CD
41. Hugged someone of the opposite sex
42. Hugged someone of the same sex
43. Gone out with someone of the same sex
44. Gone out with someone of the opposite sex
45. Stole something
46. Been too drunk to remember anything
47. Blacked out
48. Fainted
49. HAVE a crush on your neighbour
50. Had someone else snuck into your room
51. Snuck into someone else's room
52. Had a crush on someone of the same sex
53. Had gone and watched movies with friends
54. Dry humped someone
55. Been called a slut
56. Called someone a slut
57. Installed speakers in your car
58. Broke a mirror
59. Showered at someone of the opposite sex's house
60. Brushed your teeth with someone else's brush
61. Consider Mac, Dre, e40 or Mistah Fab your favorite rapper
62. Seen an R rated movie in theaters
63. Gone out with friends to the mall
64. Skipped school
65. Had an eating disorder
66. Had hurt yourself before
67. Gone to court
68. Walked out of a restaurant without paying
69. Caught something on fire
70. Lied about your age
71. Owned an apartment
72. Cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend
73. Cheated with someone
74. Got in trouble with the police
75. Talked to a stranger
76. Hugged a stranger
77. Kissed a stranger
78. Rode in the car with a stranger
79. Been sexually harassed
80. Been verbally harassed
81. Met face to face with someone you met online
82. Stayed online for 12 hours straight
83. Talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
84. Watched TV for 12 hours straight
85. Been to a fair
86. Been called a bad influence
87. Cursed
88. Prank called someone
89. Laid in the bed with someone of the opposite sex
90. Cheated on a test
91. Cheated on homework
92. Held hands with someone of the opposite sex
93. Want to be dead
94. Cut yourself before
95. Hate yourself
96. Had a crush on someone 10 years older than you. (embarrassingly..)
97. *NOT VALID*
98. Worn eyeliner
99. Skinny dipped
100. Laughed at someone who was seriously hurt

im so not an angel. i got 58. lol.

blogging. haha! today was a damn high day.
ok, not really. but kind of la uh.

woke up, didn't wanna get out of my comfy bed.
then my mum nagged me.
so i draggged myself out. =/

lalala, then reached schl just on time. haha.
had Amaths first thing in the morning.
it was, a drag. then i forced myself to pay attention.
understand functions alrdy. yay!

recess, then after that was SS.
wanted to cabot.
then lucky zhengda came to canteen to call us.
so went up to Music room.
Ms Shek was gonna take us for SS.
she gave me 'the look'.
then told me not to use the life again.
lol?

mr yip then came in and took the rest of the 45mins.
boring boring. until 1130.
went to dy's house to return him dvds.
was late to meet nad at tanah merah.
SORRAY.

took train to bugis.
ate at food junction cos we didnt wanna eat fastfood.
yuck to fastfood. it's getting boring!
anyway, food junction was as expensive.
my meal, fried rice with salted fish & cup of ice lemon tea.
costed me like, $4 + $1.30?!
wtfook la. $5.30 for foodcourt food.
go & die pls.

worse still! the stupid cleaners were so irritating!
they were like, so rude.
so many tables uncleaned/uncleared!
then when i asked one uncle, POLITELY,
he told me to ask another person cos he was gna have lunch.
-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-
totally pissed me off. grrr.

talked to nadiah like after so long?
not really, but kinda la.
headed to kinokuniya.
& that nadiah insisted on finding a toilet to wash her clean hands.
looool. damn funny.

since it was raining, i asked her to wash her hands with rainwater.
she said no, in a rude manner... ):):):
im saddened.

continue this another time.
my show start alrdy!

edited on 10thNov06 @ 15.12

okay. sorry. yest my 9pm show started alrdy.
so had to rush and go watch it.
i think im addicted to it. heh.

ok, as i was saying..
after bugis, we headed to taka cos the kinokuniya @ bugis was small.
didn't have any organisers!

reached taka and spent like almost 2 hrs there!
hahaha. damn high.
took ages to choose the bloody organisers.
and we wanted to steal the stickers from the other books.
=x

called luci, she was jealous!
hahhaah. cos she didnt steal when she bought hers.
so i stole one winnie the pooh one for her.
heh. ok, so bad but whatever ah.

finally paid and left taka.
went home. watched tv! sleep.

okay, im trying once again.
firstly, shoes!

next, wallets. omg.the red one is my ultimate favourite.

i have seen this brand in spore..

so, there's hope. heh!

i am guilty.

i have been online shopping/browsing.
making myself green with envy.
those bloody american teens are lucky.

those two are from Butterfly Dropout.

just a reminder to myself to shop for capri pants! these are pretty..as well as a pair of tapered black jeans/pants. ):

and, more shorts! sheeeeeeiiiiiiiit.

a girl needs her basics. a long sleeve tee and printed tees for me! )):

there's still shoes and accessories okay!

but blogger's not letting me upload them.

so next time, maybe. be back again!

my mothur has been home for the past 5 days.
nagging her lungs out at my sister cos of her O levels.
like, i need earplugs alrdy! before i get deaf. pprfft.

dear god, i sincerely hope and pray that my mummy won't be able to take her MC..
please grant me this prayer!! i need some freedom here.

sheesh. anywoos. today, i went to school.
for friggin' physics and A.maths.
mrs chia wasn't there for our lessons.
two whole hours practically slacking.
talking about shuyuan and stuff. lol.

recess, then A maths.
as usual, he dragged on the lesson.
and i had to leave cos my parents were aiting outside school to fetch me.
he said i didnt have prove.
so i showed him the msg i got from my mum.
and he said no timing.
like, wtf. and he read the msg out to the class.
fucking rude bastard.

rushed and took the lift down.
caught by ms shek. -.-
seriously, whats wrong with this school?

nvm, dont wanna elaborate.
too pathetic. bye.

today, we quarrelled, yet again.
another major one. this time, i gave up.
i can't take it anymore. i can't.

my head's throbbing, as if my pulse was gonna jump out anytime.
my fingers feel cold and numb.
i feel like im gonna pass out anytime now.

im sorry. for everything.
no, wait. you keep telling me my apologies are useless, cos i don't change.
i keep the same old fuckin' self in there.
like a freakin' dead person.
yea, prolly better of dead.

im so sick of all these petty quarrells.
you put things up for the world to see but i'd rather not.
you just don't know what people say do you?
cos you don't apparently hear them. well, i do.

they say they 'THINK' they know. but they don't.
you may ask why it's affecting me, cos i'm sick of people guessing.
why put your side of the story online.
i don't do publicising cos i don't embarrass people i treasure.
what's the use. pick up the bloody phone and call if you really want to.
why blog? why put it on your nick?

yea, in the end when i ask, i get sarcastic remarks.
to you, they may not be sarcastic.
but i practically smell it. i tell myself, why ask?
keep your bloody trap shut.
maybe that'll bring peace. but it didn't did it?

you said i was too quiet.
keeping stuff to myself, not letting myself be understood.
and now you say i'm building a wall.
hah! a wall. a friggin wall.

maybe it's now your turn to try to knock down the walls then.
i'm quitting. i can't. i don't. but i will if you do.

im in love with my new blogskin, so is nadiah. cos nadiah's in love with me! heh. she's weird also. seeeeee... below.

plastic hearts says:
the new nano nice ah!
Alyssa says:
DUH~
plastic hearts says:
so mini-ish but minier
Alyssa says:
-.-

i know, so retarded. but yea, she's my 'bestie'.

anywooos. im in love with the fightaids red ipod nano.
so nice please. so drool-able.

okay. told ya. i loove it please. so hot, like chilli! hahaha.
ohyah, the fightaids thingy also came up with a red motorola razr.

damn nice please. ahhhhh. money. i need money. ):

okay, shall blog again later. im killing myself by doing 'online shopping'. SHIT.

okay, so now for some retarded videos. i swear, at that moment, it was super funny. lol.

this is nadiah and ros. i forgot why they even started fighting. lol.

this one is nadiah and zakiah. we forced them to fight cos we thot of the time during sebana cove.

then zak and ros tag teamed against nadiah. nad was shouting for yasmine but she was betrayed. HAHA.

what's with blogskin.com these days? why aren't there any nice blogskins! so so deprived please. grrr. so irritating. im so irritated. feel like just using a blogger blogskin. but so difficult to edit. irritatedirritated.

today. had bridging again. from 8am to 10am only. cos after that my class had pure physics SPA. so yea, no class for me. yay? so me, nad, yas, datin went to sakura at eastpoint to eat lunch/breakfast/brunch. ate, weirdly, in silence. haha. the stupid black pepper beef i ordered was so spicy. so i was practically dying. it put me off my cravings for it alrdy. yay. haha. then after that we went home. changed and stuff and went back to eastpoint to meet dy, khai, bullu, nad to study a maths. cos of next tuesday's test. ah, what a spoiler. totally no mood/drive to study. was busy laughing away at nadiah. haha. went home after that.

such a boring day la. so stupid. and tmr we're getting back report books. byebye freedom. sobzx. ):

OKAY, i have decided to bloggggg.

erm, today i went to school late for bridging. went during recess time. had chemistry. but was slacking through out. so like, go school for nth. boring la. after school. helped the o lvlers with their art abit cos they were having their exam today. ms jonoh was shouting here and there like, godknowswhat. lala. went to eastpoint after that with nadiah. talked about alot of stuff. then walked around. became high at watsons. HAHA. dettol. like, wth nadiah. went home.

yesterday, bridging course. after that went to nadiah's house with dy, khai, irni. they were supposed to be studying and me & nad planned to watch my new dvds. but the show was so nice (as it was mine) that they too were watching the movie, Stick It. it's damn nice. you HAVE to watch it. haha. forgot that i got Step Up from nadiah alrdy! shitzz. should have watched just now. grrrr. i went home at around 5pm. then changed and stuff went to eat at serangoon with my family then went to church. i fell asleep. cannot tahan. so tired. went home, talked to dy until around 11plus then slept. so tired la.

done, byebye.