i guess there's no hope now. i don't seem to learn my lesson. it's like history repeating itself. i really don't learn from my mistakes. i see pple fall, time and again. but i don't learn. what's this?! ahh, what the heck. im trying so hard. but nothing's the same anymore. reading through our old conversations. it's so different.. like a whole new person im seeing. im supposed to keep you from falling. but i made you fall. it's my fault. out of anger, i can say anything. just like that time. and i didn't learn, did i? no, i did't. and not it's a painful regret. just like before.. it's so sickening. im repeating myself in here. fuckla.