so im blogging. hopefully a nicer post this time. i hated my last two posts. so ugly and boring. -.- anyway. i wanna say. I HATE PPLE WHO BORROW MY STUFF AND NEVER RETURN IT IN THE CONDITION YOU BORROWED IT. fcuking irritating ok. my sis borrowed my camera. and she used up two bloody batteries and didnt even charge. fucking bitch. please la. be more bloody responsible. and if mum dont let you go somewhere, you dont have to vent your fucking anger on me right. what the fuck is your fucking problem. i dotn care if you read this. better if you do. lessons were crap today. mr yip sucked. pe was boring. chinese was duh~ boring. arg. i ahte fridays.. after school me, apr, clarissa ate sakae. then came boo, mervyn, luci, blablabla. a whole lot of people. walked around awile then we went back. i havent eaten dinner. im hungry. and because of my sis, my mum is in a bad mood. WTF PLS. bitch. i hate you. i dont wanna keep taking your fucking blames okay. mum was pissed so she called me. and gyuess what? i got scolded. ive had enough okay. i have my limits. im human. you get away with the mess you created while i gotta pick your fucking trash. no way. bitch. i hate you. i dont have a fucking sister. she's a whore. a slut. so i dont have one. she can just die for all i care.
10:23 PM
okay. family quarreling again. same old thing.. hmm. didnt blog ytd or the day before. haha. sorrrrrrry. lack of updates. and the previous post was crappy. lol. erm. okay. tuesday;;
i forgot. forget it. =x wednesday;;
yesterdayy.. er. okay. wait. let me think? i only rmbr it was shamyn's bday! hehe. that girl, the bitch. lol. 6 of us headed to the singapore idols wildcard show. haha. it was fun. we canwhored. even while walking on the road. i almost got banged downed by a car during the process. lol. =x then then then then. we took a super stuffy bus. like 45 mins? to eunos. haha. we were kinda high. pespiring and all.. haha. got scolded by mum. emofxck. today;;
school was TIRING. cos i reached home at like 11 plus last night.. so i was beat. and yeah. crap stuff. -.- er. i seriously donno what the crap to type here. im so like.. clueless? physics and simpang after schl.. blablabla. ms chia's pregnant. blablabla. funeral.. blablabla. simpang dinner. blablabla. qy is a good suanner. blablabla. LASTLY. MY HOUSE IS NOT KP PLS. -.-
10:50 PM
this is not mine. i extracted it from a blog.. thought it was cute. hahaha. and cos im lazy to blog. so yeah. i shall blog tmrw. anyway, the extraction is boring. HAHAHA. Sometimes I wake up and I wonder why I'm alive. I haven't acheived nothing. Well, that's what I think. I know fine well I've acheived loads in my life I just need someone to point this out to me daily. I'm a bit of a retard but I try my hardest. To be completely honest I have no fucking idea why I'm writing this, apart from the fact that I'm bored, I have toothache and no one is talking to me online apart from Liam, who I will come to in a bit. I have a livejournal and a myspace and because I really don't have that much of a social life, I'm always on both of them. I like to think that I'm brightly colored, I have blonde hair but I'm going bright SFX pink in a few days. I like going to music festivals. I like pretty much all types of music and it really pisses me off when people say I can't like rave because I like metal. I love industrial and my favourite genre is probably pop-punk/pop rock. It's the best in my point of veiw. I'm also a little skanker. I'm the first one up skanking with the hottest guys and I'm the first to get into fights. I'm always in fights. Because I'm not one to back down from an argument. Violence solves everything. And if it doesn't, it certainly makes me feel better. I'd give up my life for my friends. Especially Mickey, Liam, Ben and Simon. I suppose, Simon isn't a friend. Well, he is, he's a best friend. He's my boyfriend and I love him more than I could ever love anyone. Possibly even more than Mickey, even though she's the best thing that's happened to me in a long time. I make new friends almost as easily as I make new enemies. But I like my enemies, they don't lie to you like friends do. They'll tell you if you look like a retard in your tartan trousers. I like sleepovers. I also like being random, which is probably why I'm doing this, because I'm bored and I'm procrastinating washing up. I'm not really bothered if no one replies, I'll probably just post again for my own veiwing. Because I have nothing better to do. WinterFist, Bmo, imafish, Llamaccoon, and Hoglysis are probably the only decent ones on here in my point of veiw, the rest are okay, but slightly boring. I've ran out of colours in the rainbow, oh darn. I'm still bored. I have a dentist appointment soon, which sucks, i hate the dentist. Anyway, why don't you write a lot about yourself, it's better than the "Introduce yourself" because you're notintroducing yourself, just relieving boredom.
9:23 PM
8:56 PM
I LOVE 9IRLFRIENDS!!!! whee~ really. they. are. great. friends. heh. i loveee them. they are like friends which you can count on! no matter what. no matter how. like yeah, we even gossip about each other behind each other's backs BUT still, we're soooo close. and it even brought us closer. cos we share what we dislike about the other person. hehs. im so in love. with him and them. lol. =x anyway. school was fun today. it was greeeeaaaat seeing everyone again. whee. i missed everyone! hahahaha. yay! even mr yip. =x i didn't sleep in lessons today. an acheivement okaayyyy.. and our new timetable kinda sucks? there's like this thing called MPE/Mass PE. so lame. i have a feeling its like the whole schl in the hall doing like stretching excercises. SO DUMB PLS. id rather read. hahaha. hmm. what else? oh! my class had a new student. and luci was pratically flirting with him. and she's so mean. she told him to pull his pants down. bitch right. thats my day. wheee. im happy? somehow. after school!! finner part please. hehe. me, ros, myn, apr, nad. we decided to go to the blk 14 new geylang serai market for lunch! YAY!! cos i had my craving right.. (see previous post) so yeah. the super nice 'delicacies' were there! whee. so yeah. i ate till my heart's content. yayayayayayayayayayayay. arg. okay. then they ended up at my house. with ros sleeping and halfway watched dvds. and ended up with us girls, bitching about some random pple on friendster. LOL. we were mean. making comments abt their photos. hahaha. whatever. okay. the next thing was impromtu.
Alyssa says:
ASK AND YOU SHALL RECEIVE!
luciana says:
lol. ya i havent went to church for a long time. so im pretty 'disconneced' right now
Alyssa says:
but you shld rmbr that line at least.
luciana says:
yea..true
luciana says:
so if i asked u for 10 bucks, will i recieve it?
Alyssa says:
no.
Alyssa says:
never.
Alyssa says:
smartness must come hand in hand with things.
Alyssa says:
lol. im so putting this on my blog.
Alyssa says:
you being despo.
Alyssa says:
HAHAAAAA.
luciana says:
what?!
luciana says:
me?!
luciana says:
where got
Alyssa says:
well. yes, you. then who?
luciana says:
i where got despo
luciana says:
im hoping u r talking abt the person behind me
luciana says:
i think u r
Alyssa says:
no. no one's behind you la. liar.
luciana says:
ya. bloody mary is
luciana says:
hehe
Alyssa says:
whatever. so not funny. -.- yeah.. that's luci for you. TATA!~
8:06 PM
arg. i HAVE to blog this. i
have
a
craving
for
SOTO AYAM
&&
CHENDOL!! arg, shitzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. -.- BYE. heh.
11:29 PM
woke up super early for cat class today. then we had to do this presentation but my partner was on holiday. so i did it alone. kinda okay. haha. then i met luci at parkway to cut my hair. saw farid when i was walking to the toilet. and boo at mph while i was waiting for luci. haha. saw many many nice books at mph. )= i thinned my hair and cut my frindge. it's now like slanted? kinda weird. but okay la. haha. then came home. i was sooo tired. cos i was out the whole day ytd and today. so yeah. then i fell asleep aft dinner. blablabla. okay.. school is starting tommorrow.. what a drag. but i can't wait to see my classmates and mr yip again! haha. and 9irlfriends! we didn't even meet each other during the hols. i only met nadiah.. how sad. anyway. pics from the wedding!

at st. joseph church. i need a tan. look at my feet. =/

the church's stained glass! pretty!!

the cute little girl in the front row.. haha.

wedding rites. cute couple. my cousin is the girl!

offering tea to my biggest aunty. she looks like my grandma pls.. -.-

before the wedding dinner! uncle, aunt, cousin-in-law, cousin, sis, mum, dad, ME!

uncle, aunt, sis, mum, cousin(behind), dad, me, uncle, aunt.

all of us, yound ones. sat at the same table. whee~ it was fun. (: conclusion of photos with flash, I NEED A TAN! arg. =(
10:17 PM
YESTERDAY;;
woke up and went online. blablabla.. then went to spore post to meet nadiah. i was supposed to eat my lunch but i just woke up so i didn't feel like eating much. ended up halfway through my cheeseburger when joe called to say they reached paya lebar mrt. so i threw my burger away and went to meet them. and that stupid nadiah refused to share drink with me. cos she wanted to buy new paper on soccer updates. -.- such a good friend huh. and then we waited and waited and waited for the princes. -.- rightt.. dy and aldie. haaha. there was like me, nad, mel, vivi, claire, joe, yx, han, rasheed, bullu, sherman. haha. yes, alot of people. hahaa. we finally headed to cathay to watch scary movie 4. at first we were lucky that they didn't check our IDs. then the lady came and asked us for it. so me, mel and nad said we didn't bring. then she let us off. phew. scary movie 4 wasn't that great. i didn't laugh much. kinda corny. no point watching it. hahaa. waste of your $9.50. went to church after that. TODAY;;
my cousin is getting married today. haha. went for the church service in the morning. then lunch reception. and then the tea ceremony! i got an angpow for it. all the younder pple didn't even have to like offer tea or anything. just shake hands. haha. easy moneyyy. 6bucks. for going to the church service. not bad eh. haha. later will be the wedding dinner at raffles the plaza. think it's stamford hotel or something. can't wait. TO EAT! hahaha. BYEBYE.
3:04 PM
yeeeaaayyy! www.-lyssa.blogspot.com is BACK. to kick ass. whee. ok. whatever. BYE.
12:10 AM
i was blogging halfway yesterday. but many hawks were surrounding the prey. hehe. as in my parents were surrounding me la. -.- yeah, so i shall continue today. i saved the halfway post. so here it is!
YESTERDAY}
okay. so my cooking sucks. i can't help it right. im like my mum. she can't cook for nuts either. so i follow her footsteps. lol. you know why i say i can't cook? i didn't eat dinner. so when i came home, i went to my fridge and planned to eat the frozen pizza. those kinds where you put it in the toaster for 6-8mins (stated). but! i was too smart. i wanted it golden brown. so i put it in for 10mins. so i came back to my comp. and i didn't even smell the burnt smell. i only realise when i heard the ding sound and walked to the kitchen. lool. so, i ate a burnt pizza. and it was supposed to be easily cooked and eaten. wow.
anyway. i shall blog about my day.. hehe. woke up damn bloody early, supposedly to study. but i didn't. i was reading my library books in my room. it looked like i was studying though. haha. then i went to bathe and get ready. i was fcuking early.. waited for dy and han to cut hair finish then went to spore post to meet them. aldie was there too! and he kept saying about my house being kaopei. nb. it's not okay. it's just the mosque and the aeroplanes..
i must tell you all why they keep suaning me. they have alot of reasons. and it's just in one aspect. MY HOUSE LOCATION! nb. only number 2 and 5 is true okay. the rest is crap. sheesh.
1) i stay on the 3rd floor, therefore, i can't see any stars for nuts.
2) i stay directly next to a mosque, therefore, the noise from the prayers. can't blame.
3) i stay near the mrt track, therefore, the noise is tremendous.
4) i stay near the fire station, therefore, i donno what.
5) i stay near the old kallang airport, therefore, many aeroplanes and helicopters often fly directly over my estate, causing loud irritating noises.
6) i can't say. cos it's racist. i don't wanna go to court. lol.
sidetrack. continue.. then we headed to plaza sing to meet aldie's mum. ate at pizza hut! aldie's mum's treat. hehe. she's cooool. then we went to cathay to buy tix. and she got 10% discount for us. cos she used some credit card. hahaha. we ended up watching silent hill. a NC16 show. heh heh heh. lepak while waiting then went into the building to look around. the adidas shop there is super huge and cool. haha. i must say something. i like watching horror movies. WITH GUYS ONLY. you know why? not cos im a freaking flirt la. cos.. if you watch with girls, the thing that scare me is not the show. but rather the girl screaming. its like the show is not scary, but the sudden screams make me freaked out. so my conclusion is: i don't like watching horror movies with girls. (:
also! i don't like watching ghost shows. cos i will think of the ghost. i like horror shows. cos im not scared of the blood or whatsoever. unless it's really gruesome la. but i won't like think about how the ghouls in the horror show look like. cos it's like not scary. only in the theatre im scared. (: anyway, the show was good. but the ghouls were bad. they weren't scary. and i don't know why it's NC16. there's only 1 part of a naked woman. and you can't even see anything. and blood, well only one part also. hahaa. the sick nurses with big breasts. heh. okay, then dy was late for his match. so we headed to gamers in a cab. han was landsick. so poor thing pls. i was supposed to meet luci for dinner. but didnt cos she was so late. it's all her fault i had to eat a burnt pizza. HMPH. heh. no la. my fault. i like my post. it's long. i like long posts. YAY! byebye. tag please. :DD
11:53 AM
to everyone who comes here, please dont relink me. i'll be changing back to my old url once the teachers are not so worried about blogs. so yeah, dont relink me. thanks. be careful of what you guys blog nowadays, a bunch of 'harmless words' can get you charged in court. :D i just came home from marina south steamboat. my mouth tastes of oil. it sucks. -.- that place is just invaded with ah bengs who think they're so blardy handsome. yuck yuck yuck. and they cant stop staring. arg. disgusting please. anyway. my day has been spent worthlessly again. i hope hope hope i can go out tmrw. if not, i'll die staying at home. apr's coming to tan at my house on thursday. IF i remember to remind her. lol. arg. ok, byebye.
9:36 PM
Three Parts Of Your Heritage:
Cina, Melayu, Peranakan?
Three Things That Scare You:
Dying, Rapists, Ghost.
Three Of Your Everyday Essentials:
Comp, Hp, Water.
Three Things You're Wearing Now:
Boxers, Underwear, Chingay Shirt.
Three of Your Favorite Bands or Musical Artists at the moment:
Matchbox Twenty, Something Corporate, P!ATD, Saving Jane, Taking Back Sunday.
*opps, too many. =x
Three of Your Favorite Songs at the moment:
Unfaithful, Girl Next Door, Who Knew.
Three things You Want in a Relationship (other than love):
Honesty, Respect, Commitment.
Two Truths and a Lie:
I Rock, I Love Someone, I'm Not a Virgin.
Three of Your Favourite Hobbies:
Eating, Online-ing, Cam-Whoring.
Three Things You want really badly right now:
MONEY, Freedom, Haircut. =/
Three Places You Want to go on Vacation:
Japan, Hawaii, Maldives.
Three things you want to do before you die:
Get Married, Have Sex, A Family.
Three people I would like to see take this quiz:
Everyone. :D
3:05 PM





i'm helping my neighbour to sell some voodoo dolls. she even has the earring types (the first pic).
she has many colours and even some with a dress on. haha.
contact me thru msn or email if you're interested.. thejunkfest-@hotmail.com
5:17 PM
i decided that my blog is like so uglyyy. i can't stand the way i type nowadays. it's so so so not appealing. im so so so long winded. see? told you right. how 'so's have i typed. ARG. anyway. i've been soo tired these few days. maybe it's cos of the shopping and all.. but, can't be what. im so weak. bahh.. i miss my darling. last time i saw him was err, friday? hmm. my whole june holidays are so wasted. it's like, i haven't been to town until yesterday. haven't even watch a movie. ARG. neos, haven't even took once. smart la. so smart. grr..
8:37 PM
whee~! i went shopping today! with mum and van. heheh. at first i was totally soo soo bored. oh. did i mention? i forgot to bring my hp. and i had 13 missed calls and 5 msges. lol. i feel so bad.. -.- sorry to everyone who tried to contact me. =x
anyway. yea, i was totally bored when we first reached town. had ya kun kaya toast for breakfast at far east. SUCKS. dont ever eat it. it sucks. killiney is much much better. lol. then we walked over to tangs to spent the 50bucks voucher my mum had. it was so boringggggg.. -.- mum bought a 2 carat diamond ring. thats why we wasted so much time. -.- deciding. and well, going mad over it. she finally bought it after much thought. almost bought the sarah jessica parker perfume too.
then we walked over to wisma. topshop! the shoes werent there.. no size. nvm. i tried on so many skirts and nice tops. but finally decided to buy this black shorts. its. like. so. nice. please. :DD lol. so so so happy! yay. oh. i bought 3 pairs of earrings too. anyway, im gonna get my topshop shoes tmrw at parkway. it's reserved! whee. then we went to blablabla. walk walk walk. went to taka. ZARA! bought a skirt. bright blue skirt. for next week's wedding. not mine. my cousin's. lol. then walked over to the departmental store. 9bucks shirts.. bought 2. from FOX ok.. not some cheapo brand.. ate ice cream, udon noodles and auntie anne's. mum went to larry's. she wanted to 'upgrade' her ring. from 0.5 carat to 2.5 carat. -.- but the person said it wasnt worth it. so he said she shld just buy the new ring. how smart.. its like 33,950bucks. 0.0 oh. my mum said the haagen daz guy was cute. cos you know why? he was super polite. and he looked like some jap model. -.- and she kept asking him for samples. at first he asked us to try the new flavour, then we couldn't decide what flavour to buy, so he gave us like samples.. then she became so excited. -.- MY MOTHER.. she said she hope i bring back a son-in-law like that for her. WTH?! im home now. and i feel sick. 0.0 BYEBYE.
10:36 PM
okay.. promised post. met aldie at spore post to eat lunch at mac. saw his mum. then went to meet luci at parkway lib. saw isabel and astria. then we did hw for awhile. then headed over to her house. played with daisy, her dog. but she kept scratching me. Zzzz.. then i met aldie and dy at simpang for dinner. then met mum and van at parkway. long day. tired. -.-
1:31 AM
YESTERDAY}
i was supposed to blog last night. but dy had me stuck on hexic. haha. AND, HE DIDNT PAWN MY ASS ON IT. thats for the record. :D we played from 11plus till 1am. hahah. its fun okay. hmm. i was supposed to go work. but i didnt. was too tired. so i slept till 1pm. then i woke up. went online. eat lunch. then got pulled out by luci and jill to parkway to supposedly borrow books for reading tasks. but we ended up crapping and all. then we walked around parkway.. i saw SUPER DUPER NICE SHOES at topshop. im so gonna buy. i dotn care. its like.. so cute. like me. aww.. okay, anyway. then had dinner with family at home. then i watched tv. JOAKIM is in. wheeee~ zak and yas was at mediacorp watching live ok. not fair. but maybe im going next week. so its okay. hahaha. after hexic, we talked till 3am. lol. so much thunder and lightning. "pple taking picture of my house." LOL. TODAY}
erm. maybe going to meet luci. update later! byebye.
1:25 PM
im laughing my ass off now. really. i am. HAHAHHAHAHA. i donno why la. but i find pple like shermain, anonymous, and now the brand new. and HOPEFULLY improved.. GIRL16. such cool nick names you have for yourselves. really. i cant seem to get why you all are sooo interested in MUA. i mean, yea, i know you're jealous of me and stuff. but really, think about it. must you get to such a pitifying state? lol. really, im still laughing as im typing this. i find all theses anon tags damn amusing. cos you guys tag, and get scolded in the end. HAHA. losers with sad lifes. lol. i donno. i had so much to type. but a blank mind comes whenever i get this screen. haahha. im still laughing. GOSH! losers.. -.- anyway.. on with my envious life of the whole wide world.. hehexz.
today. MY DARLING DY woke me up at 8. then i fell back asleep. supposed to leave house by 9 but i woke up at 9 instead. rushed out. managed to reach work in time. haha. my job is called and au pair. if you dont know whats that, go read the book by melissa de la cruz. basically, and au pair is a babysitter. ONLY its a high class one. which take cares of the child/children's mental needs more then their physical. :D cool huh. i know. thats why GIRL16 is sooo jealous. lol. yupp. finished around 5 so went to meet the other pple. nad, DY, joe, aldie and the JMHS. they were all heading to mel's house to watch some dvds. so yea, met them there. haha. they were halfway thru the weird/porno show. donno what title. its dumb. i didnt understand it. but nad was laughing like, god know's what? lol. then after that we watched s'pore idol and ordered canadian pizza. then after that me, DY, joe, aldie went to the playground behind mel's house. i rode DY's bike. and i got a terrible tummyache since then. )= oh, BUT ITS OKAY. DY WILL LOOK AFTER ME. unlike SOME pple.. tsktsk. sad lives.. :D anyways, then we played. and they were mad. they climbed EVERYWHERE like monkeys. saw stars.. then rode back. then after that rode to dy's house there.. then JMHS went home then me aldie and DY walked/rode to tanah. then i went home. fun day. but terrrble tummy ache. oh, but its okay. AGAIN. haha. food for thought, something adam told me..
always have faith in faith cause if you dont have faith in faith then faith wont have faith in you. kind of true right. coolxxzz. okay. its 1233am. lol. got work tmrw. BUHBYE.
12:00 AM
okay, time for a proper post for you all. within these few days. what's been happening. (on the brighter side, of course) firstly, rihanna's unfaithful has topped my itunes/ipod's top 100 most played list with 67 times within a mere 3 days. not a suprise actually, its's been on repeat ever since i downloaded it. so yeah. its a great song. kinda emo but yeah, nice. and meaningful. what else.. oh, my parents quarrelled alot. ALOT. until sunday morning i woke up for church by myself and found my dad sleeping in the living room. i never asked. cos a man has his ego somewhere. furthermore, my sis didnt even know.. shows that he woke up extra early hoping that only my mum herself knew abt the night's happenings. hmm.. i finally went for work. earned like think arnd 30 bucks so far? im not sure. its not alot. cos i go there for like 4 hrs or so only.. tmrw im going again in the morning. so i'll definately earn more. anyway..
i donno what else to post. so yeah, bye.
6:53 PM
After all, the broken stones
That were thrown, for no good reason
Inside, she's loving him still
After all this time
And though her heart bares the scars
No sign of healing, It's All right
She's loving him still, after all this time.
Trying to push the past away
Still waiting for the lights to change
Try, try for the sake of their pride, pride
Learning to barely feel the pain
Thicker the skin the less the strain
And though it's really hurting
She aint breaking, breaking, breaking
Coz she's loving him still, after all this time
Now he knows his weakness shows
Selfish soul, never changing
That's fine, because she's loving him still
After all this time
And to the outside eye
You see a family getting by
And it all seems perfect, and that's how she wants it
Coz she's loving him still, after all this time. Trying to push the past away
Still waiting for the lights to change
Try, try for the sake of their pride, pride
Learning to barely feel the pain
Thicker the skin the less the strain
And though it's really hurting
She aint breaking, breaking, breaking
Coz she's loving him still, after all this time
Still waiting for the lights to change
Try, try for the sake of their pride, pride
Learning to barely feel the pain
Thicker the skin the less the strain
And though it's really hurting
She aint breaking, breaking, breaking
Coz she's loving him still, after all this time
After all this time....
After all, after all, after all this time
Bones have to grow, and age it shows
Though we try and hide it
Inside, she's loving him still
After all this time
And behind his tired eyes,
She sees the boy with his arms wide
Who made her feel like an angel
Ohh thats why she's loving him still
For the rest of her life, she's loving him still
For the last of many miles
She's loving him still
After all this time.
to you;
for im lovin' you still, after all this time.
12:25 PM
i guess there's no hope now. i don't seem to learn my lesson. it's like history repeating itself. i really don't learn from my mistakes. i see pple fall, time and again. but i don't learn. what's this?! ahh, what the heck. im trying so hard. but nothing's the same anymore. reading through our old conversations. it's so different.. like a whole new person im seeing. im supposed to keep you from falling. but i made you fall. it's my fault. out of anger, i can say anything. just like that time. and i didn't learn, did i? no, i did't. and not it's a painful regret. just like before.. it's so sickening. im repeating myself in here. fuckla.
seems like your hand's on the door..
3:49 PM
You aren't going to be his first, last or his only.. He's loved before, he will again. But if he loves you now, what else matters? He's not perfect. You aren't either. The two of you will never be perfect but if he can make you laugh at least once, cause you to think twice, and admits to being human and making mistakes, hold on to him and give him the most you can. He is not going to quote poetry, hes not going to be thinking about you every moment but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don't hurt him, don't change him.. Don't expect more then he can give. Try not to over-analyze.. Smile when he makes you happy, Yell when he makes you mad and Miss him when hes not there. <3i don't know what's stopping me from msging him. those half-written and thought-over msges. why can't i just be confident and sure for once? why can't i see the positive in others? why must i be questioning every single thing? why don't i trust? i think god is trying to show me something through all this. but im not making things right here..
11:31 PM
sebana cove updates. go to http://www.skanomalous.blogspot.com/
yesterday was mitchell's chalet. luci was there too. and all the rest. came home late. got scolded by my parents. as usual. and the worst part is got scolded not cos i was late but cos i explained and they heard wrongly. and blamed me in the end. yeah, wth. im finally going to work today. i totally have no mood but gotta go. cos im so fucking broke. i feel so pathetic. byes.
im sorry; for being such an emotional wreck.
11:28 AM
ive been crazy this few days. having major major mood swings. suddenly crying when i feel a little teeny weeny bit of stress. feeling super freaking uncontrollably emo for no freaking reason. guess this is what they call an emotional wreck? i thot i had it with my minor mood swings last time. but now, this is the max i guess. the max emotional wreck.
8:56 PM
today was one hell of a hectic day. from the early morning headache plus the damned swollen ankle to me and my sis quarrelling which resulted in mum banning the both of us from the comp. so this is now plain illegal. so ive been spending the whole darn day reading my newly borrowed library books. and im bored to tears. i just realised that im going for camp tmrw. and i packed within 30mins. cool huh. so we, the peer leaders are going to sebana cove tmrw. im stressed out. i thot it was on the 7-9th june. until ros called me an hour ago to inform us what to bring. then i realised. and we gotta be at the ferry terminal at the ungodly hour of 7AM. cool huh. we'll be back on wednesday evening. bet i'll be dearly missed. lol. ok. im not supposed to be online.
4:12 PM
okay. while choosing a new blogskin for my blog. i shall blog. lol. yesterday.. woke up. didnt eat anything and i was abandonded at home. all alone.. this cruel world.. )= ok, whatever. so yeah. i was online for the whole day. what was i doing? mapling and o2jamming. hahaha. then i went to meet aldie at kembangan mrt to head to simpang. i was well, late. and it was well, his fault that i didnt tie my hair! it was a freaking hot day. but great cos i was finally finally OUT OF THE HOUSE! so yeah. headed to simpang. ate *number1 and drank teh pang. heh heh heh. felt GOOD. like an aphrodisiac. well, almost. then jerome, dy, sherman came. and we headed to gamers for their match. hanbin was there too! cooolxxzz. ehh.. then there was this super cool magician or wahtever. he was really good with cards. damn cool. his hands are like ultrasupersonicbuzzlighyear fast. ok. whatever with the descriptors. JUST FUCKING FAST. ok. whatever. JUST GOD DAMN FAST. no. thats insulting to god. JUST DOWNRIGHT FAST! yes, the best. ok. then i felt sick. as in real sick. cos of the limejuice i think. it was so sour. and i felt like puking. then the toilet was like 10 million miles away. had to go to the katong mall one. thank god, it was clean. then home. then my parents were qurrelling. YET AGAIN. i shut the comp down immediately and went to my room. I HATE IT. I HATE IT WHEN THEY QUARREL. I HATE IT. today.
was
a
super
boring
day. the end. (:
11:14 PM
deleted all posts for today which i previously blogged about. they were all so emo and well, dumb. my days for the holidays have been downright boring. nothing else to say about them. i havent even been to town yet. and its the great singapore sale. how smart huh. aunty syl was supposed to call me today regarding the job. and she havent. maybe i'll call her tonight. we'll see what happens. hmm, what else. oh. i got job openings. so if you want a job PM me on msn or tag here. mostly from sales. so yea. be prepared to be able to talk and stuff. im bored. and having a terrible headache. prolly from all the mapling. ive been sitting here since 12pm. so im not suprised. stopping here. BUHBYE. {edit
okay. ive finally done up my friendster profile. its much more pleasing to the eye now. although its kinda plain. but still, at least better then the horrendous normal friendster skins. lol. oh, i just realised something. and well, had the need to just blog abt it. ha ha. i havent stepped out of my house since monday. seriously. as in. not even out of the door. all ive been doing is sleep, eat, watch abit of tv, blog, play maple/o2jam. THATS ALL. i didnt even realise anyone can live like this before. guess, I can. cool huh.
6:52 PM
I think Ive already lost you
I think youre already gone
I think Im finally scared now
You think Im weak - but I think youre wrong
I think youre already leaving
Feels like your hand is on the door
I thought this place was an empire
But now Im relaxed - I cant be sure
I think youre so mean - I think we should try
I think I could need - this in my life
I think Im just scared - I think too much
I know this is wrong its a problem Im dealing
I think youre already gone
I think Im finally scared now
You think Im weak - but I think youre wrong
I think youre already leaving
Feels like your hand is on the door
I thought this place was an empire
But now Im relaxed - I cant be sure
I think youre so mean - I think we should try
I think I could need - this in my life
I think Im just scared - I think too much
I know this is wrong its a problem Im dealing
If youre gone - maybe its time to go home
Theres an awful lot of breathing room
But I can hardly move
If youre gone - baby you need to come home
Cuz theres a little bit of something me
In everything in you
Theres an awful lot of breathing room
But I can hardly move
If youre gone - baby you need to come home
Cuz theres a little bit of something me
In everything in you
I bet youre hard to get over
I bet the room just wont shine
I bet my hands I can stay here
I bet you need - more than you mind
I think youre so mean - I think we should try
I think I could need - this in my life
I think Im just scared - that I know too much
I cant relate and thats a problem Im feeling
I bet the room just wont shine
I bet my hands I can stay here
I bet you need - more than you mind
I think youre so mean - I think we should try
I think I could need - this in my life
I think Im just scared - that I know too much
I cant relate and thats a problem Im feeling
Cuz theres a little bit of something me
In everything in you
In everything in you
6:48 PM