ALYSSA (:

Wednesday, May 31, 2006

okay. i shall blog about my super duper weird dream i had. normally, when i wake up, i cant remember a single thing about my dreams. but somehow, i could remember this dream vividly..

at first, i was supposed to go out with dy. and somehow, he came to my house to pick me up. my parents didnt mind at all. number1 weird. lol. then after that, when i got changed and all.. my parents suddenly asked me to do stuff for them. like wash clothes, wash plates.. mainly household chores. number2 weird. and everytime i finished doing 1 job, abother one would be availible for me.. so it was kinda like a continuous thing.. number3 weird. -.- then. by the time i was finished and ready to go.. my family decided dinner at parkway! imagine, parkway of all places. sheesh. so weird. then dy had to go home first. somehow or rather. i didnt know why either. he just went home. lol. then my parents drove to some ulu ulu bus stop far far from parkway. and we had to walk from there. number4 weird. drive but not reaching parkway.. stupid right? so yea, we walked. and somehow landed at this weird weird cantonese restaurant. where they sold like the vinegar noodles, egg pancake, pork floss pancake, etc etc. like all the super weird food. and the place was, well, VERY DARK and eerie and spooky. like some haunted house. then we had to order like at least 20 dishes from the shop. so we ordered. like every single weird thing. and we couldnt like eat anything halfway. whatever we started eating, we had to finish. it was kinda scary. and there were like 4 waitresses/spooky pple sitting around us at the table. staring at every single thing we ate or did. it was scary. then when my sis couldnt finish the food, she said she somehow saw a ghost and the ghost told her that if she didnt finish she would die when she stepped out of the place. LIKE WTH? after this, i woke up. and couldn't get back to sleep.

food for thought. lol.

1:38 PM

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

DY: YOU HURTED MY FEELINGS.

10:17 PM

fuck. how fucked up can this be. a post i made earlier about me being fucked up for no fucking reason, about to blow up to ANYONE who irritates me.. and yet, my fucking comp just has to hang. the whole post gone. wtf? is the whole world trying to irritate me. even the technological (donno if there's such word) world??? fuck. fuck. go and die pls. just like go to hell.

knn.

10:03 PM

okay, i shall make up for yesterday's post. i wanted to blog. after my mum complained that i was too noisy playing o2jam.. fuck la. like i lowered the volume ald. and she screamed at me: you dont quit the dumb game now im gonna press the button (the internet connection) and ask you father to cancel the line cos i dont use it anyway.. bla bla bla. always the same old shitty things. wtf la. i lowered ald. so i shout back. then she said i was rude. WTFWTFWTF. Zzzzzz. then i quit o2jam and used IE instead. wated to blog. and she complained that my results arent good (when she havent even seen my report slip). she claims she doesnt want to disappoint herself. WTF? geess. then she complained that i could do so many other things online. but NOT find my own AMATHS tutor. WTF? she as a mother should help me find right? she complains she's too busy. when she can get herself involve in all the dumb condo committee crap? wtf wtfwtf. its so redundant. and she gets back from meetings complaining abt EVERY SINGLE FUCKING THING? wtf pls. eergh. ARGH.

im supposed to blog abt ytd. so i shall begin.. ehhh. woke up played maple for and hour and i was lvl 5 ald. then luci asked me to simpang for pratha bomb. but i was too lazy and well, BROKE. so i remained at home. slacked awhile. then apr called to go to parkway. nearer so i went. met them abt 3 plus. called luci along. so it was me, apr, luci, myn and nad. they ate at macs. i stole food. LOL. then apr came over to my place. watched memoirs of a geisha. for the third time. its still as nice and exciting. lol. then i went to meet mum for dinner. she ended up nagging la. as usual. aft dinner, played maple. created new char cos xiang said must choose the stats properly. donno what la. so yea, new char. after that mum nagged. so i went to my room read books. lol. so guai. oh, i ate 2 ice cream cones and campbell soup. wheee. bye. blog again later.

1:05 PM

Sunday, May 28, 2006

today has been such a boring boring day.. church, lunch, home, MOVIE MARATHONING. i watched like 3 movies in a row.. bridget jones diary, cadet kelly and into the blue.. gees. then self-made baked rice for dinner. i must say, it was good. haha. and now im online. my sis installed maplestory. she doesnt know how to play. hehehe. erm. what else. ive been o2jamming? errr.. yea. boring luh. i havent shown my parents my result slip. mum claims she doesnt want to see it. sheesh. -.- oh, new slideshow i made.

10:12 PM

Saturday, May 27, 2006

hm. okay, im back from supposedly M-A-S-S. heh heh heh. but nooo, luci and me headed to town instead. and we saw merv, boo, asri, sanjeev, adam, hao jie... at orchard mrt. so they didnt watch Xmen 3 in the end. it was too crowded. all were fully booked. haha. anyway, im trying to dl xmen 3, da vinci code and scary movie 4. hope it gets done soon! haha. cool heh.

okay, so me and luci ended up joining the guys at carls. jr. its not really that BIG-ASS-HUGE as in the pictures luh. me and luci shared. and we were'nt full! its just normal. but really quality meat and nice. haha! we ate the portobello mushroom burger. not bad. its like a huger version of mushroom swiss from BK. haha. we pratically slacked there and chit chatted. then i went home and they headed to adam's house. so much for wanting to pull luci back to church..

And the coastline is quiet.

While we're quietly losing control.

And we're silent but sure we invented the cure.

11:01 PM

i feel like i havent blogged for ten thousand years. but actually its just yesterday. haha. last day of school was super duper boring. free period for the wholeeee entireeee day!! pprfft. i shldnt have came la. luci woke up late and pangsehed me. there were like only 17 people in my class. how smart. half of them were in china/hk. the half of the other half pontenged claiming they were tired or sick from the sec3 camp. how smart.

i was almost late for school. woke up late. ruched like a mad woman. met nad and apr at tanah. walked to school tgt. ended up, my class didnt get to have PE. cos there were not enough PE teachers. HOW BORING! 1 whole hr of doing nth. and talking crap. and trying to make each other jealous abt Xmen 3. Zzzzz. then it was recess. so me and nad went down early to find shamyn and apr. we were abt to buy food, then ms yee caught and scolded us. how lame. it was like only 5mins earlier.. after she scolded us, it was like exactly 9am for our recess so we bought food. SO DUMB PLS. after recess, the boys decided to play truth or dare. so me and nad joined in. gibson had to hump and kiss the floor and omar had to hump my bag and moan at the same time. LOL!! so funny. the best was rf when he had to wear my skirt and run arnd 3A. so daring. hahaha. then it was our usual free period so we went to the library. SO BORING. back to class for cleaning but yip didnt come. practically a slack day.

after school, me apr myn luci nad went to siglap kfc to eat lunch and slacked there till it was time for ptm. got back my results. was alright. ok, BAD. class position was 31/40. percentage was 54.8%. went home and got ready to pick the HK students from the airport. met apr and went to tanah merah to meet the rest. then we went to eat popeyes. sat at the viewing mall to eat. so pathetic. haha. luci and me left and i headed to pp then home.

4:17 PM

Thursday, May 25, 2006

im finally HOME. never felt this good before. seems like whenever i come back from camp, home's the best thing that i can ever have. LOL. so unloyal but kinda true la. camp, was alright. kinda boring for me. cos i was at the same camp when i was p5. so all the activities were the same. but i guess i gotta know many pple who i didnt even think existed before! haha. lucky i was in the same group as shamyn and joy. we three stuck together. (: and well, sleeping in tents was definately a not so good experience. firstly, the door flaps were open W/O mosquito nets. so yeah, I attracted the most mosquitoes. -.- its bad, i tell you. very very bad.. secondly, they gave us wooden floor boards to sleep on. and even with sleeping bags, its super duper rock hard. like so uncomfortable. Zzzz. i missed my SUPER COMFORTABLE BED! haha.

i missed him.
i missed my bed.
i missed o2jamming.
i missed my mamy.
i missed my dady.
i missed my teddy.
i missed the comp.
i missed my ipod.
i missed my handphone.
i missed school.
i missed my dad's cooking.
i missed schl canteen food.
i missed mr yip.
i missed my classmates ( as in 3B ).
i missed HOME.

ive got a super sad life la. later, i still gotta go to church. how boring. im betting that i'll fall asleep. oh. and i feel lost. so many things have changed..

2:58 PM

Monday, May 22, 2006

i feel as if ive lost touch to the internet. i used to be so caught up in it. and now, its like o2jamming all the way. lol. i cant help but say, i think im addicted. =x i used to surf friendster.com like some mad woman, looking at act/step/ching chong girls. never guys. unless they look really hot? oopsss. hehe. yeah. and blogskins.com is rarely visited already. i used to look at it like everyday. making sure i got every single nice blogskin there is. THERE, everyone who asks where i get my nice blogskins, my secret is OUT. -.0

ANYWAY. tmrw is sec3 camp. im so so so so so so so so (X100,000,000,000,000) not looking forward to it. -.- sheesh. ive already been to serimbun in like primary 4 or 5 la. so there's really no use, i think. im just looking forward to the nature rumble. LOL. thats all. other then the dirty toilet, uncomfortable beds, homesickness, ALL CAN THROW AWAY LAAAA. hmph. ok, no point sulking. i havent done packing. ive got no sleeping bag or shoe bag. ive got not enough shorts. very smart..

school today. had the movie screening of EIGHT BELOW. its about snow dogs and well, snow storms stuff. kinda touching. but even dogs cant stay that long w/o food or water right.. hmm. there was a super scary part. the whole theatre shouted/screamed. when the leopard seal came out of the whale. LOL. so funny. but yeah, scary i mean. errrr. parent teacher meet on friday. MUM's NOT GOING! yay yay yay. i tried so hard not to look so happy when she asked if she could not go. LOL. but yeah, who cares. deal with the scolding when i get home la. crappyy. went to dy's after school. i watch dodgeball. and he taught me how to dl movies illegally. LOL. how evil. then home. heavy rain. now the weather's fine. (: BYE ---> o2jam. =x

8:42 PM

Sunday, May 21, 2006

this sucks. after finally being able to download o2jam, it's server is always 24/7 FULL!! arrrgghhh. irritating. so i can't bloody play it. dammit la.

yesterday! went out to watch movie with dy. we watched poseidon at cineleisure. saw sean, faiz, jiangyue. after eating at ljs. walked around abit. then went for the movie. it was goood. nice. the effects were good. hmm. then met aldie at eunos the 'simpang lookalike' place for dinner. and dy was super high. so horny.. -.- then yixiang came. and i left. walked home with him.

im bored. o2jam's full. how sad.

2:35 PM

Saturday, May 20, 2006

i finally managed to download and patch the o2jam. LOL. so i can play. haha. coool.. okay, anyway. im supposed to be sleeping ald. my mum claims sleeping late is unhealthy, so therefore, i shld sleep now. early. although its like 1229 on my comp clock. Zzz.

school was like a total waste of time today. i practically did NOTHING. only like 1 hour or so of the helen o'grady english oral course thing in the monring. then it was free period all the way.. so boring! after school, me apr bullu headed to dy's house. then went to eat at simpang. then dy me sherman joe were at playground. THIS POST IS SO LAME. OK, NO MOOD LA. BYE.

12:29 AM

Thursday, May 18, 2006

Bound to say something, eyes closed,

It's cold, and I'm home

I feel like nothing again,

Pretending not to care, but I care,

And I care, don't say another word

Our time was worthless, and I tried

We started over and over again, as we let go

We held each other, held hands,

Held standards and grudges

That's when I let you know,

I guess that goes to show

Just what I've been going through,

More nights of hugging my pillow, oh

Replaying memories

Sing this song for me;

And tell me how you'll never leave my side

I'll meet you at 7

I miss you already, goodbye to you

(The last goodbye, I'll never say to you)

Time was worthless, and I tried

We started over and over again, as we let go

We held each other, held hands,

held standards and grudges

That's when I let you know,

I guess that goes to show

Sing this song for me;

And tell me how you'll never leave my side

I'll meet you at 7

I miss you already, goodbye to you

the last goodbye I'll ever say to you

And I tried so hard,

And I've done my part,

And not to mention most of all of yours

Try and feel,

Try and listen,

Try and think of what you're missing,

Try to look into my eyes.

Goodbye Sing this song for me

And tell me how you'll never leave my side

I'll meet you at 7

I miss you already

Goodbye to you

The last goodbye I'll ever say to you

Replaying memories

You'll never leave my side

10:44 PM

fucking cramps. fucking menses. -.-

okayyyy. SCHOOL WAS FUN TODAY? i think. anyway. i decided to to get back to posting longgg posts. i miss them. hehe. oh. i finally downloaded messenger plus. LOL. so cool please. hmm. ok, school. hmm. morning. i felt like shit. i didnt bring my medicine along and so i felt like crap. my throat was sore and had the stuck feeling. haha. so irritating. the drama course! i was so lethargic.. not feeling well then we were in the AVA room.. so cold. and its like so irritating. haha. after that was supposed to be english. but we all conviniently went for recess instead. so we had free period aft that. havoc in class.

then was the whatever programming whatever kazar or what shitty thing. its SO LAME. like some ladybug. no one was listening. everyone was online. having mass convos and spamming the whole thing. so lame again. luci was trying to seduce me the whole day. she's so despo.. -.- hahaha. then mr yip gave back our a maths papers. i failed. 43/100. fucktard.. i mean no one la. just fuck it. haha. hmm. then free period again. went to dy's house after that. watched i not stupid too halfway, then went for physics. got back results. 30.5/50. i passed. thank god. yay! then went back again to cont watching. then i went home. boring. im bored. bored. bored. -.-

8:59 PM

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

OHKAYYYY! dy is so mean. haha. anyway, i went to school today! hmm. we got back our english papers! im soooo happy. whee. haha. like languages are my only hope left. so i really hoped that i did well. and yeah! my english i did well. YAY!! got back lit also. not veryyy good. but alright i think. haiyah. who cares la. oh, i gave mr yip my baked apple granola bar as his belated bday present. hehe. im so nice please.

after school. had art. we did clay. thank god my nails weren't very long. haha. if not all of the clay would get stuck inside. LOL. made little fishies. haha. so cute. mine was kinda heavy. i suck at clay la. then after art. me, nad, apr, ros went to parkway lib. i borrowed another book. nad borrowed also. shamyn was supposed to meet us but didnt in the end. haha. hmm. went to parkway itself. and we all were super super high. they started bullying me as usual. -.- so mean. saw mr shamsul, ms err, ms marinah! haha. cool heh. went to buy bbt. then giant. couldnt find fbts for camp. it was like XXL. so hugeee. i looked fat in it. so didnt buy. hopefully there will be some at tamp. if not im so dead. they bullied me. and ros is called bean. LOL!! (:

english paper 1 => 45/60
english paper 2 => 34/50
literature => 29.5/50

i like my new blog. and new tagboard. do tag pple. the tagboard's kinda dead. cos its new. thats what i dont like bout new tagboards thats why i dont like to change them. so yeah, TAG!! even if a dumb anon person. hahaha. no, i take that back. WRITE YOUR NAME IF YOU TAG. your consideration is much appreciated. (:

8:36 PM

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

i didnt go to school today. but i spent like half the day at the stupid stupid government polyclinic. i swear i HATE HATE HATE government places. it always takes so blardy long!! yeah, so i got medicine and MC for one day. -.- heard that school was boring. alot of free periods. even a lecture from ms kow and a money management talk. thank god i didnt go! haah. oh. got maths paper back. i got 51/100. im screweddddd!! cb.{

{edit}
okay. i just got back from simpang. hehe. and i finally omanaged to do up the blogskin. YAY. within one day. i think im pro. LOL. nice right. if i missed out your pic, please tell me. and its either i dont have your pic, or i dont like you. HAHAH. ok. anyway, went to simpang. with dy, jerome and sherman. i got suaned. even though i was sitting there quietly. damn sad pls. haha. i got nothing to blog abt. hope my other results arent gonna get any worse. thats all. BYE.

2:49 PM

Monday, May 15, 2006

my cute hair.

fatin on a high and me.

apr, nad, me.

errr..

i often get smelled. cool huh! i smell gooood.

the final cam-whoring.

the process.

final with different perspectives!

9:41 PM

i feel so sad. SHOUTMIX IS DOWN. they are having server domain problems. i hope it will be resolved. i dont wanna get another tagboard. so wasted all my tags.. )= like memories erased..

ANYWAY. i just got home. hehe. today was fun! i couldnt sleep last night. was tossing and turning trying to find a good spot to sleep on. but just couldnt! from i went in at 1130pm finally slept at arnd 1am. then woke up at 2am. slept, somehow and woke up at 4am and 5am and then finally for school at 620! so little sleep. but i felt so awake. suprisingly.. ahha. free period for chinese and physics. i read book. im so guai. i didnt talk. only in chinese class la. cos whole class there. so the guys were talking abt women, sex and pies, as usual. and i was listening. hehe. had this oral class. damn stupid. and my phone rang halfway. lucky she didnt hear. although it was loud. think she dont care also. haha.

after school. me, apr, fatin, nad, myn went to nad house. we watched dvds - constantine and butterfly effect. and ordered mac for lunch. haha. it was so fun. and we were taking stupid videos of us raping each other. and laughing our heads off. OH. AND THEY'RE SO MEAN. THEY NICKNAMED US ALL GIRLFRIENDS AND GUESS WHAT THEY NAMED ME. BULLIABLE! AS IN EASY TO BULLY. so mean la. )= im like the weakest. they always attack me. sobsss.. then after that we started plaiting our hair. as in french braids. me and apr's hair done by fatin and nad. soooo fun! hahaha. and nice. we went home with braided hair. i felt so ching chong. and act cute. actually, IM NATURALLY CUTE PLS. hahahahaha. ok, better shaddup before pple say me. haha. went home. took many nice photos!! shall upload later aft apr send me. wheeee..

7:00 PM

Sunday, May 14, 2006

its amazing what boredom does to you. for me, it makes me do weird things and make me have weird realisations. when im bored, i will pig out. as in eat. and eat. and eat. and eat. and eat. and eat. and EAT. so far. ive eaten, spaghetti, baked beans, 1 pack of chips, mashed potatoes, chicken wings AND drank HOT WATER. i dont drink hot water, FYI. i only drink it when im sick. so yeah, im going crazy i think. and!!! ive realised. hot water tastes like the smell of menses blood. hehe. cool HUH? ok. bye. blog again later. -.-

8:23 PM

Saturday, May 13, 2006

okay. so today isnt one of my best days. for starters, i woke up with a swollen ankle. i couldnt even move ok. it was soo scary and painful that i cried. )'= and my mum just had to wake me up by slapping my ankle. which made me scream. at her. HAHA. too bad la.. i was practically limping out of my room to the bathroom to brush my teeth. then to the kitchen to get some biscuits and milk then to the living to sit down and eat and watch tv. -.- I WAS IN PAINNN!! fuck. what bad timing.

then came the plan for the day which involved ALOT ALOT ALOT of walking..
1)parkway to cut my sis hair/lunch
2)olps for mother's day mass
3)airport for fish and co with dady

so i limped to the toilet for a shower and then limped back to my room to change. i was in AGONY i tell you.. -.- haiisshhhhhh. yeah. waited arnd fotr my sis and mum. i put the yoko-yoko on my ankle. but it still hurttttt.. i wore my new shoes STILL. lol. like the hokkien phrase my mum always says, ai swee mai mia. means want to be pretty tahan the pain. LOL! kinda true right, about girls. haha. yea. so headed to parkway. walked around like donno how many times. my sis bought shoes and mum bought both of us new pierre cardin bras. i got 1 black and 1 beige. for school. HAHA. ok, unnesscessary. mum was set on getting something new cos it was mothers day and me and sis got new stuff. Zzzz. so walked around somemore. then she got frustrated so we headed to starbucks.

cabbed down to church. sat in there. and fell asleep. i know, stupid but i was tired right. haiyah. and not feeling well also. fucking headache now. with block nose. what the shit la. then took bus to airport. ate fish and co. was so freaking hungry. it was abt 9 ald la. -.- then now im home. and i wanna die. i feel like F-U-C-K.

10:34 PM

Friday, May 12, 2006

one of our neos ytd.

cam-whoring/bitching. you're seeing double. dont worry. :D

11:34 PM

shall blog about my boring boring vesak day holiday.. ZzZz. woke up at 12 plus. slept at 5am last night. or rather this morning. he came back at 130am. what was going thru my mind was crazy. cos his hp batt was dead. so he didnt msg or anything till 130. i couldnt sleep obviously.. sighs. okay. so yeah. ate maggie mee. watched dvd - in her shoes. errr.. slacked all the way. eat and eat and eat. until i had stomach pain. kept shitting. like arnd 5 times. -.- i ald had tummy pains last night. no one was there for me. )= haiishh. hahaha. okay, whatever luh. i shitted like 3 times last night. and 5 times today. must be all that snacking. it was consoling me ok. -.-

went out to meet aldie for dinner. ate mcwings AGAIN. then i went home. i just realise i have 40bucks left in my POSB. im so screwed. its like my whole month allowance. my savings all gone. shit la. fuck it. im so broke. and holidays are coming. GO AND DIE. -.-

10:41 PM

Thursday, May 11, 2006

im back. i know you missed me. hehexxz. hmm. headed to town today. it's been sooo freakin' long! haha. new shops and all. haha. woke up at like 1230pm. i didnt have school. sad lifes for those who did (esp those who went to schl for 30mins for a CME exam!!) lalala. ok. so yeah. and my dad thot i ponteng schl. cos i was in my room happily sleeping till 1230. so he thot i was at school. LOL. his shocked face, was PRICELESS! haha. so cute. like father, like daughter. ahem* so i asked for permission to go out, like a good little girl. and he said no. ): cos i went out ytd ald. to gamers remember? yeah. so i called my mum. AND SHE SAID NO TOO!!! till i packed my room that is. it was in a post-exam-ultra-messy-hurricane-went-thru-state. yes, thats how my parents call it. -.- so i packed and by 2 i was done. pespiring. and it was worth it. my first time hearing echoes as i talked. thats how empty and cleared it is.. good eh?

changed and got ready. skirt and top. like normals. met them at city hall. they took effin' long i tell you. i almost died. meanies. made me wait. thank got i had my ipod. the trusty one. hmph. so yeah. we headed to somerset, cineleisure. they ate BK. i was a good girl, i ate homecooked food by my dad. and yes, it was delicious. (: ros and zak came. so it was 6 of us gfs, me nad ros apr zak fatin. hmm. took neos. TWICE. aphrodisiac. hahah!! it has been sooooo long. it was a miracle i survived ok. walked arnd and ended up at paragon. went to NOVO! and guess what? i bought the long sought for retro looking 'pumps'!!!! gosh, i was on a high. it was like drugs or something.. haha. and 15% discount cos it was vesak day. i know, 15% is like only 5bucks. but it was a good enough reason to buy it. LOL. starbucks then headed home. FOR DINNER. im so good.. bet you're jealous. (yes, you! anon tagger..) HEHEXXZZ.

oh. and new skin on the way. feast your eyes. and drool. and well, be jealous. hahah!!

11:22 PM

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

i just reached home.. hahaha. so tired. me and nad were like the only girls there. i wasnt bored. but nad obviously was. and i felt so bad. then yx opened a comp for us. so we played need for speed abit. and then watched them play DOTA all the way. haha. kinda fun watching them curse and swear and get so caught up in the game. LOL. and the sound system was goooood. i was vibrating when i leaned on the wall.. ok, out of point.

anyway. shall blog abt today in school. i woke up quite early actually arnd 615 then i went back to sleep cos i was err, lazy to get out of bed. so yeah, i sleepppp shiok shiok. then suddenly woke up. it was 650. freaking late.. normally i leave house at 645. so yeah. faster went to call aldie to share a cab with him. and he was so late. Zzzz. the taxi driver was pissed with waiting. but i reached schl on the dot at 725. did my art exam. my fingers were cramp. i used colour pencil the for the WHOLE PIECE! including background ok.. -.- went to eastpoint to eat with ros and yas then went home. then went gamers inc. then now im home. tired.........................

10:14 PM

i cant believe it. im actually going down to gamers inc to support them. LOL. im bored la. ahah. so yeah. me and nad are going to watch the match. coool heh. haha. but im bored. and i was cam-whoring by myself while waiting for nad's call. how dumb. havent cam whored for sooo long. LOL. i predict nice photos for friendster soon. heh heh heh.

to BYSTANDER;
as you put your nick as BYSTANDER, follow it. it means to stand by and keep your mouth shut. if you really know him well and wanna help me or whatever.. you can jolly-well put your stupid name down. let me know who you are. if not, dont tag anon. and dy can sweet-talk me all he wants. in my heart, i know i still will love him. :D

okies. gtg. BYE.

4:21 PM

Monday, May 08, 2006

1 reason why i love my boyfriend so much.

dy. says:
i miss u so bloody much
alyssa says:
sure?
dy. says:
ya
alyssa says:
very very very sure?
dy. says:
YES
dy. says:
i miss u so much tt i wanna hug u so tight in my arms.
dy. says:
tnk tts like over board.
dy. says:
later u suffocate
alyssa says:
)= i was beginning to be happy.
dy. says:
i miss u so much and wanna hug u like e ocean hugs e shore

i bet you girls are jealous. awww, you'll get over it. LOL! (:

9:26 PM

shall blog about ytd. hmm. woke up for church. when i slept at like 4 i woke up at 11? was sooo tired. hahaha. then after that went to the harbourfront centre. got some kinda exhibition thingy. ate SAKAE SUSHI! haha. so nice please. haha. then me mum and van shopped while dad went to see the computer exhibition. i was sooo stoned. -.- walked around aimlessly. it was as if we knew the shop at the back of our hands.. haha. round and round the same places. bought this voodoo dolls earring. nice nice. starbucks again mocha rhumba frap. err. then bedok 85 for minced meat noodles. and home. studied lit. almost died. -.-

had lit today. was okay i guess. i think i didnt write enough, cos my hand didnt hurt at all. or maybe its just that my hand power has become better. LOL. hmm. went to parkway after that with apr, myn, ros, zak, fatin. ate MAC BREAKFAST! hahah. big breakfast. and 4 pc macwings. lol.. then we walked arnd. aimlessly again. OH! we went to MPH and i found the LOLITA book! i wanna buy it. shamyn bought a book. kinda cooolzxx. hmm. bought the A3 art file. sat at coffeebean to 'study' abit of a maths. understood coordinate geometry! haha. well, abit la. hehexxzz. then me and apr bought the seasoned scallop. soooo nice la. LOL. then home. im having headache. AGAIN.

5:16 PM

Sunday, May 07, 2006

I thought I saw a man brought to life
He was warm, he came around like he was dignified
He showed me what it was to cry
Well you couldnt be that man that i adored
You dont seem to know,
Dont seem to care what your heart is for
But I dont know him anymore
Theres nothing where he used to lie
My conversation has run dry
Thats whats going on, nothings fine Im torn

Im all out of faith, this is how I feel
Im cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
Im wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
Youre a little late, Im already torn

So I guess the fortune teller's right
Should have seen just what was there and not some holy light
To crawl beneath my veins and now
I dont care, I have no luck, I dont miss it all that much
Theres just so many things that I cant touch, Im torn

12:39 AM

Saturday, May 06, 2006

okay. so i wanna go back to blogging. i kinda miss it. thats how dedicated to this shit i am. LOL. haha. anyway. about today. hmm. woke up at around 1. then went out to eat lunch and parents went to vote. then i went to meet luci. to go to eastpoint starbucks to study. yuppyupp. then dy, joe, sherman came. did amaths until around 8 then went for dinner at simpang. then he send me home. nothing much today.

last few days have been spent at starbucks eastpoint too. just studying for the subjects for the next day. thats all. (: im a gooood girl.

10:29 PM

Friday, May 05, 2006

havent been blogging. maybe it'll remain like this for long.
the drive isnt there anymore. sorry.

when all hope is gone, how can i move along?
past mistakes die hard. maybe its happening..

"I did the the best I could and it wasnt enough. Maybe I should try harder not to try so hard. Not to give it all betting on uncertainty. Because sometimes giving the best you can, just empties yourself and makes you hollow."

11:28 AM

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

im supposed to meet apr, nad and ros for supposedly studying. but im too lazy. my butt feels heavy. and they're gonna watch a walk to remember. shitzZzZ.

5:13 PM

Monday, May 01, 2006

i am so shagged. just came home. after blogging in the morning, i bathed and conked out by 9am. woke up officially at arnd 1130 and got ready to go meet nad. i was so stoned i tell you. i couldnt think straight what to even wear. -.- had a terrible headache also i so hate consequences. haha.

ended up at the popeye's food court to study. then arnd 2 plus luci came. and dy, joe, aldie and xiang came later. got chased away so we headed to eastpoint starbucks to study. today wasnt the day for studying. just couldnt concentrate well.. after that headed to katong for laksa and gamers inc. for the guys obviously. and now im home. SUPER SHAGGED. im so dead tmrw. its like SS and ENGLISH PAPER 1. i freaking dont know the format. ZzZzZ.

9:24 PM

okay. so much for not wanting to sleep after tonning for the whole night since what, 1AM? fuck the headache man. its killing me. i didnt want to sleep actually. was afraid i wouldnt be able to wake up to study later with nad and luci, AS PROMISED. haha. im such a faithful friend girls. the headache is killing me, as i said. so yeah. im gonna take a nap i guess. hopefully my darling will wake me up later. haha.

ytd night was total BOREDOM after i came home. well, aft that blog entry actually. i just simply couldn.t find anything freaking thing to do! ZzZzZ. so yeah. i decided to ton. but there was obviously NO ONE as mid years were in like 2 days time (its tmrw now you see). yupp. finally, i got my paya lebar kid friend, aldrich tham. haha. at first it was arnd 12 plus. so there was hope we still had buses to take. so rushed out to meet him. and well, i smelt FREEDOM. it was greeaaaat i tell you.. (: waited for a freaking bus for like almost 2 god damned hours, during which aldie claimed that i kept saying the F word. -.- haha. in the end bus '2' didnt come, so we took '30' instead. it stops at bedok interchange. the FURTHEST from simpang. so walked the whole way there. had a pit stop water break too!

reached simpang and me and aldie only had like a freaking 6 bucks IN TOTAL. congrats to us. but we somehow managed to survive. even saw police cars. dont play play ok. i was like : eh! got poilice here! and the policeman was like standing right next to me. and immediately aft i said that dumb sentence, aldie said fuck. so it was a miracle we didnt get questioned. LOL. went to 711 then cold storage and finally settled down at syed restaurant. got myself a teh peng and aldie a mee goreng. soon after that, we were bored so we headed over to dy's house. his dad was awake so we had to wait outside abit. so we practically tonned at his house from abt 4 to 8. and now im home. had a nice shower too.

im off to hit the sheets.

8:47 AM