my parents are dead coooool shit. LOL! they are like chatting with me online on MSN messenger now. somehow, my mum remembered the tricks me and my ssi taught her abt MSN. so yeah. she's chatting with me now. and my dad's using SKYPE to talk to me. hahaa. fun. but dangerous also. cos its like when you wanna lie to them. abit hard. haha.

just came home actually. was out the whole day STUDYING! hehehe. i was ok. im a good girl. met dy after church at tanah merah. headed to airport BK to study. saw mels, joy and claire! bullu, natasha, joe and sherman came. studied awhile more. then we were bored on our butts. so we decided to go to eastpoint starbucks to study. that place was goood. nice cushioned sofas. HAHA. then simpang for dinner. and now home.

i guess i should be posting something. since im in the mood to do so. somehow, i AM an inspiration i guess. after my post about missing girlfriends, blogs have been sprouting out on these kinda posts too. *FYI, if you aren't guilty abt this, don't go on ranting and gossiping about me behind my back. moving on, guess we all really miss each other alot. it's just that no one really goes about in making the first move to try and improve this situation we are in. the first step is the hardest i guess. after which, everything will definately be smooth sailing.

this blog of mine. is my life. although it doesn't track back as far as some of your blogs do, im dedicated to this. this is my only way out i guess. its like where i can express whatever i want. and the best part is, whenever i want. the only thing that's stopping me is the internet i guess. haha. life definately hasn't been smooth for me. who's has? from insults, to gossips, to even backstabbing. guess ive gone through it all?

and to that SHERMAINE person. stop being a sore loser. if you are jealous about me. come up to me. i might even give you a few tips about how i handle my life and stuff. just don't come here and spout vulgarities. thank you.

i hope this period will be over soon. its like a maze which you can't get out of. school has been tough and home is like a jail cell. how bad can that get? like now, everyone's out but im not allowed to go out. cos we're going to celebrate daddy's bday later. my parents are going to krabi from tomorrow till friday. which means freedom in some way or another.

just got home. physics ended late today. im tired. back is aching like hellll. erm. physics test was alright. but cos some of them cheated so she's not gonna take it into consideration. i dont know why im blogging. its so boring. and life sucks.

i miss GIRLFRIENDS. i feel that we all have drifted apart in some way or another. i miss our thursday simpang sessions. i miss the times when we spent sooo much time in school just deciding where to go. i miss everything abt us. i guess cliches are really predictable. they get together and all seems nice and sunny and blue. but after awhile. its like a thunerstorm or soemthing. the truth is like beneath everything thats seen. ):

anyway. today was a hectic day. first of all. we had 2 maths test. first was the inequality one. it was ok? i think i can do pretty well. then the second one was the AMATHS coord geom. that one ah. can die i tell you. wah kao eh. i didnt know the whole paper??! only 1a) hahaha. which in the end i got wrong also cos of the minus sign. -.- err. after schl had art. then english remedial. then simpang with dy, shaik, luci and aldie. it was great seeing my dear again. ((:

oh. and i miss gfs. did i say that already?? hmmm. ):

i think im back to the 2 weeks ago feeling again. im feeling fucking stressed. its like EVERY SINGLE freaking day we have tests. today, we had chinese compo test and vocab test. tmrw we're hanving 2 T-W-O TWO maths test. ytd, we had another maths test. how freaking packed up you want us to fucking BE?? seriously. i think this school sucks. during learning fiesta, they 'BORROW' freaking palnts to BEAUTIFY the school. make us students stay back almost everyday for the previous week to practice, stress us. under the freaking hot sun. causing me to have freaking bad headaches. all this, is alright. but its the pretence our school has that pisses me off. its like, HELLOOO?? you're trying to show us that: oh. now our schl is famous, so we have to UPHOLD the image. UPHOLD the SCHOOL'S image. get it? THE SCHOOL'S IMAGE BUT WEEEE, STUDENTS UPHOLD IT. yea, sure.. we 'love' doing it. -.-

we're like forced to do stuff for our school. its so pretend. liek some kinda game we're playing. it isnt real. aft all this is over, the pple come back to collect the plants. and our school is back to the ugly normal state. i will alwyas remember last year's learning fiesta. WHEN A TCHER MADE ME CRY COS I HAD TO DO EVERY SINGLE FREAKING THING BY MYSELF. I WASNT EVEN LET OUT OF HIS SIGHT. GOT SCOLDED IF I WENT TO THE FREAKING TOILET AND LEFT THE 'STALL' ALONE. wtf is this? a prison? puh-lese man.

anyway. i need out. pretty soon, it wont be the same again.

okay. so today was an alright day. only 1 thing. if you freaking dont want pple to view your freaking friendster profile put the settings as freaking first degree. dont come around saying out loud but not in my face that i viewed your freaking ugly/step culture/chingchong profile. so fuck off. we got off your backs and now you wanna start again? go and die. i cant be bothered to waste my tiem on such low-down creatures. just cos you're senior in school doesnt mean anything. your big number isnt as big as you think. fuckoffbitch. or rather fuckoffbitchES.

sundays are always so friggin boring. always nth to do. and always expected to study my brain out. -.- anyway, ytd had learning fiesta/speech day. it was boring! compared to last year's. this year, there was sooo little pple. and guess what! MR JAIS CAME BACK! gosh. we were playing halfway during the parade, then shalbiah was like: mr jais! cos she was sitting behind me. then i looked at her then back front again. and my heart skipped a beat, it felt as if someone had gripped my heart, it felt tight. then i could feel tears welling up in my eyes. was sooo darn happy! gosh, we all missed him. (: anyway, i think the band sucked. we didnt even tune our instruments. cos ms wong claimed we didnt have time. she warmed us up abit. but obviously it wasnt enough, as i was skipping notes during the parade. crappy. then aft that it was free time all the way. somethings happened shall not say. dont want some pple reading my blog to know. went to tamp aft that with yas, khai, apr and fatin. i wasnt high or talking. just didnt have the mood. and ashley parker angel's let you go was definately an afrodisiac at that time. haha.

church this morning. then now im home. im so bored. and i havent started my art.

ive been such a good girl these few days. ive limited myself from the comp! like only maximum 30 minutes on it. thats all. ive been studying from 9-11 every day. although 9-11 is like just 2 hrs but its intensive studying okay. im good. i did half of the AMaths TYS homework already. gonna do the rest tonight. and im going off the comp after i finish blogging. good huh! haha.

anyway, had phy after school.. went to simpang before that. blablabla. clara tan looked weird today. in her 'dress'? haha. err. mr yip didnt come. must be the fever. poor thing. luci didnt come too! maybe she had a date with him.. ahaha. errr. what else? ms chan didnt come! mr edward tan relieved and taught us chemical bonding shit. i was soooo sleepy. haha. err. what else? errrrr. oh! tmrw school ends at 1035. means my free periods have been reduced from 3 to 1 only. how sad. ): haha. ohwells. maybe we're going town. so fun! neosneosneos. BLAH.

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ohohoh!! i have a superrrr duperrrr hugeeee urge to go to FOX now. all jill's fault! she brought a catalog from there. and i saw soooo many super nice shirts and skirts!! AHHHHHHHHH. ihateyoujill. and luci has a sad life. she missed out the fun we had today. LOL.

ive been a super good girl. ive been doing my homework. and today i have TONS of homework. reason is: exams are coming and tchers are cramming us, students. how amazing. but not suprising. haha. yeah. so ive got 2 chpts of AMaths TYS, 1 comprehension/summary, half of the whole chinese workbook, vocab test to study for, AMaths factor and remainder theorem test to study for and lastly, MY ART PREP WORK! im so dead. yeah. and today, mr yip had fever. 40 degreeesss. his face was red. and cos of that i think he was PMSy and he scolded us like never before, therefore the 2 chpts of TYS. eergh. and he was shouting stupid in some pple's faces. so scary. guess he was feeling really sick. poor thing. -.-

finally back at school today! ahhaha. feels great. although tiring. had photo taking! think this is gonna be like the 'nicest' photo taking ever. haha. last 2 years were crap. as in the fun photos la. this year we have MR YIP! hahaha. formal photo luci and jill were next to mr yip and i was next to jill! zakiah was far off. haha. then the first fun we 4 girls (rockers of treebee) blew kisses at mr yip. he even asks us to sit on his lap! hahaha! so cute pleaseeee. hehehe. oh. and he invented a new form of greeting him. fists in the air. -.- super lame la. hahah. he was in a good mood today. thank god. oh. and the 2nd fun photo was sid holding mr yip's shoe. acting like some salesperson or something. super cute. hehe. and we created an alliance. 1) against luci <----- i started it. then luci was angry, so she started another alliance against me. ohwow. like definately i will win la. lame shit.

after school nad, apr, ros, myn and me went to tamp mall to eat pizza hut. and alos to 'celebrate' apr's bday. nothing much. poor girl. she seems so depressed over it. haha. then we walked around.. kinda boring. -.- bleeeehhhhhhhhs.

i just came back from marina south steamboat. burps. so blardy full! hahaha. today was plain boring. church in the morning, HAPPY EASTER! then dim sum. then home. studied abit. im a goood girl okay. yupp. then marina south. BORINGNESS!

anyway, i miss the girls alot. seeing all the photos on april's blog. they're like having so much fun. im left out! ): guess its my fault also. everytime they go out i cant make it. or have some reasons that just make me not wanna go. hmm. i miss them! i miss neoprints too. think the last time i was with all of them was at yasmine's house movie marathoning. which is like almost 3 weeks ago! how pathetic.

so i didnt go for the click five concert/hollaback crew finals. yupp. but i certainly had very very very much fun today! okay. err. morning woke up and my mum had craving for carrot cake so we went as a family to eat the super nice one at bedok! then went giant after that cos my dad had some coupon to spend. blablabla. reached home immediately went to get ready to meet joe and daiyu at paya lebar mrt. rushed out of the house. i was kinda late. and i couldnt decided what shoes to wear! first, i wore my pointy pumps. then i went downstairs thinking that i was over dressed. then i went back home, changed into my other pumps. went downstairs, decided they were gonna give major blisters, so i went back home AGAIN. third time, my dad was like : either you get out of the house now, or you stay home and follow me to church later! hahahah!!. i was like : okok. im gonna wear shoes ok. hahaha. so funny please. so yeah, i wore shoes. and finally felt comfortable. :D

reached doubhy and realised the rest were late or UNCONTACTABLE eg luciana. -.- haha. so we went to check out the shows avalible and decided to watch the 445 ice age 2. slacked at starbucks then bullu arrived. was about to leave and go to paradiz plaza to play pool when shaik and luci finally arrived! so we went to play pool. i kinda sucked at it. was really dumb. but some balls were OKAY i think. hahaa. i won bullu. but he gave me alot of chance. haahh! after that we went back for our movie at plaza sing. ice age 2 is reaaally soooo cuute! i thot it was gonna be like super daft and lame. but no! it was nice. hahah! better then ice age. after that, went to eat at bk. my left hand was like super tired. and couldnt move. no idea why. liek suddenly weak. ): mitchell and gavin came and we went back to paradiz for their shisha. they wanted to play lan at first but no 'together' comps i think. so yeah. went for shisha. they went for shisha. haha. then melvin came. then kiang tuck came. but we left soon after cos it was kinda late. took train with dy, joe and bullu. joe was so freaking horny. so irritating. ahahh! and i gtg ald. cos its 11pm. curfew on the comp. wtf right. hahaa. kay, BYE!

im finally not feeling that shagged anymore. its been a super tiring week i guess. and thank god for good friday. ahaha. i dont get why its a public holiday. isnt it like a church event? ohwells. had the learning fiesta full dress rehearsal today. but band didnt get to wear our nice smart sleek pretty bright red and gold uniforms. no idea why. suddenly they say dotn need. and me and apr got tested on the songs today. as in like solo. i was so nervous. plus the F key had some problems on my flute. eergh. so yeah. it went OKAY i think. went to meet my parents for dinner at eunos there. ate thai food.

lessons were kinda crappy. maths lesson i fell asleep then mr yip caught me and told me to stand outside. i cldnt understand him at first cos i was still half asleep then i was like huh? and he sort of shouted at me. ): and he's predicting that i will fail maths both a and e badly. cos i dont pay attention and stuff. and he's sadist. he enjoys seeing pple fail and seeing pple cry. so mean.

yesterday was so very very tiring. was damn tired from the singapore sevens. felt so drowsy the whole day. and after school, i felt like i was having fever and stuff. so damn tired. in the end i didnt follow the girls to collect the tix and stayed in school till arnd 4 plus. went home after that. had church service fell asleep during that also. then when i came home, i sat on my bed to do my homework but ended up falling asleep also. wtf la. so freaking tired. -.-

woke up late today. felt like an ass going to school, like as if i cld just fall asleep anytime.. lessons were super boring. half the class wasnt there cos of the NYAA hk thing. i was alone. cos zak and jill had NYAA and luci woke up late and didnt want to come to school. -.- so i was talking to the boys half the time. or either stoning or sleeping. haha. mr yip was pratically bullying me. so damn evil. he made me clean the walls. english was super boring. and chinese was dumb. as usual. art was boring too. i screwed my canvas. it looks worse then before. cos the crayons dont blend with the paint. dumbdumb. so tired. going to eat at the new geylang market later.

yesterday was so very very tiring. was damn tired from the singapore sevens. felt so drowsy the whole day. and after school, i felt like i was having fever and stuff. so damn tired. in the end i didnt follow the girls to collect the tix and stayed in school till arnd 4 plus. went home after that. had church service fell asleep during that also. then when i came home, i sat on my bed to do my homework but ended up falling asleep also. wtf la. so freaking tired. -.-

woke up late today. felt like an ass going to school, like as if i cld just fall asleep anytime.. lessons were super boring. half the class wasnt there cos of the NYAA hk thing. i was alone. cos zak and jill had NYAA and luci woke up late and didnt want to come to school. -.- so i was talking to the boys half the time. or either stoning or sleeping. haha. mr yip was pratically bullying me. so damn evil. he made me clean the walls. english was super boring. and chinese was dumb. as usual. art was boring too. i screwed my canvas. it looks worse then before. cos the crayons dont blend with the paint. dumbdumb. so tired. going to eat at the new geylang market later.

i dotn freaking feel like blogging. i spoiled today. for us. im such a freaking spoiler. fuck la please. i know its my fault but yet im so pissed cos of you. ARGHHHH! wtf wtf wtf wtf. go and die please. i wanna die. now now now. but whatever it is. the whole day was going on GREAT. the atmosphere at the stadium was GREAT, the crowd was GREAT, the drunk man joking with us was GREAT, the players were GREAT, luci was GREAT, everyone was GREAT. but i wasnt great. im a freaking spoiler. ):

okay. im gonna repost this entry. forget abt everything said. hmm. saturday! the first day of the singapore sevens tournament! excited excited excited! met luci at tanah merah. then after that dy came. and we met mitch, nat, jerome, kt and shaik on the bus 14. reached kallang stadium. was kinda suprised that there were so little pple! mitch said on the 2nd day more pple cos the finals. so yeah. watched rugby all the way. so fun please. haha. it rained halfway. and we had to wear ponchos. my pants were still wet anyway. but it was fun! then we headed out for lunch. had no idea where to go. were kinda lost. i have to admit that! haha. in the end we walked all the way to golden mile complex to eat. and walked all the way back. mitch and nat, me and dy, luci shaik jerome. -.0 hahah! continued watching. and there was this angmoh guy who was drunk. and he kept disturbing kt and joking with us. very funny! haha. until the very last part. and yeah. something happened? me and luci took 70 to paya lebar. then i went home w/o dinner. ):

sunday! ytd. went to church in the morning. was sooo tired! and it was fiona's bday so we sang her a bday song. haha. then i met apr, luci, sasa at kallang mrt. cabbed there and this super ugly and ah beng guy asked for sasa's number. kena rejected of cos. hahah! LOSEERR. it was more fun on sunday. cos more pple and the matches were all very hiong. hahah! samoa won the dotn know what thing. and they did the hakka. not as nice as new zealand's. they got kicked out. damn sad la. watched more matches. and then we went out for lunch at suntec. this time we were smart. we took a bus. hahaa. ate mac. wanted to eat ben and jerry's but i was like too full. hahaha. took bus back again. in the end FIJI WAS THE CHAMPIONS. they didnt do hakka. so sad.. went to spore post to eat ljs. then he send me back. :D great day.

today's such an emotional day for me. to start of with, i fell down while walking to school. i know, sounds dumb but yeah. wasnt thinking straight. while crossing the road, then my whole left leg fell into the drain. its like scraped and stuff. damn disgusting. haha. but it looks like a tattoo. got pattern la. hahah! yeah. then i continued walking to school, trying to act like nth happened when it obviously hurt so terribly. -.- felt like such an ass. hahaha.

then had napfa. i did QUITE well. everything was either A or B. only 1 C and 1 D. D cos of my shuttle run. leg pain then cant run properly. hahaha. oh. and i got 16/30 for my chinese test. i did my freaking best. and i get this kinda result. seriously la. im so depressed.. ): then free period all the way. after schoool the girls were all so quiet and moody. yeah.

had band. sectionals and i practised the songs. learnt them. then had parade rehearsal. sucked. cos we were like so noob. hahaha. and my butt was hurting. the chair is lousy. then after band. ms azleen said that me and apr were on 'pending' whether she wants us to play for the parade. ASS LA. they said if we came they will let us play and now they like that. wtf mans. and she wanted us to return our SYF uniforms on monday. freak. and she made us run arnd the qurangle cos ms wong said that our stamina suck. wtf please. we're BAND not any sports CCA. to hell with you. -.-

went to simpang after that with apr, wan and mervyn. ros they all were there ald. didnt get to talk to them. they left when me and apr went to the toilet. how sad. didnt eat. didnt have the mood. drank teh peng! hhaa.

oh. and be jealous please. im going for the SINGAPORE RUGBY SEVENS! hahahah! :D

i was stressed up ytd. didnt come online. so i didnt blog. nth much happened also. lessons, art, band. crap. guess today was alright. ms clara tan didnt come. so we didnt have test and i was stressed up for nth. thats one thing abt why i was stressed la. yeah, so this tcher named alvin i think came in. he was quite good-looking and jill liked him! hahaa. we all told him that jill thinks he's cute then he was saying yeah, you all are cute too. hahaha!! he told us ghost stories. and he said he liked our class best! i kept complaning to him abt luci disturbing me. hahaha. and he said i laugh loud. quite true la but still.. he's 19 btw. haha!

mr yip was in a pms-y mood today. he made me stand in THE SQUARE. i didnt la. just stood at the whiteboard then i was bored so i started singing empty apartment - yellowcard. and he said i was singing to quanyang. WHICH IS LIKE SO TOTALLY GROSS PLEASE. I HATE QUAN YANG. he cant speak properly for nuts. and he's so blardy kaypo. -.- then i was like saying he too short not singing to him then mr yip said i was singing to michelle which was behind quanyang. and the whole class said i was a lesbian. WELL, LESBIANS ARE HOT STUFF OK. so im hot stuff. ahahahha! yeah, and boo was like saying loser to me. and mr yip scolded him. he was so angry. wanted to give boo a beta form. hahah! it was damn funny la. yeah, thats about it. not very interesting at all. but i love my class. i think we all are such great rockers. hahah! :D

i miss the old you. )':

sorry for not posting pics ytd. as soon as i finished blogging. my mum nagged and nagged and nagged and nagged AND NAGGED. so yeah. i went offline. so irritating la. i cant stand it ald. its like driving me nuts. the worst thing is she keeps saying im becoming like vanessa (sis). thats like the worst thing that anyone can ever say. me and my sis are like worlds apart based on looks, attitude, likes, dislikes. the only thing we talk abt SOMETIMES are relationship stuff. but when she gets pissed off at me, she'll just blurt everything out to my mum. its really sucky. so for my mum to say that 'im following in her footsteps', 'becoming like her : being online the whole day in sec3 and slacking in sec4 then failing her Os' thats like plain crap la. and she just pressures me. she wants me to get into JC. get at least 9 points. wtf la. -.-

as i was saying. yea, so i didnt post the pics. cos i havent got apr and luci to send me. apr's sending me now. so maybe later i'll post them. school was alright today. had 3 tests. so many please. in a day somemore. hahaha. first was maths coordinate geometry test which i totally screwed. at least 20 marks gone ald. the test is 30 marks. damn smart. then was chinese test. i put my heart in it okay. i did my best. wanna see how well i will score. hopefully it'll pull up the marks. then was english situational writing test. very okay. i mean, it was kinda tough thinking and writing it like in a proper format shit thing. but overall i think i was okay. art after school was boring. cos ms jonoh didnt come. so we pratically did nth and yet the bald guy didnt want to let us off early. what crappy shit. he sent me home. :D

okay. here are the pics. alot of them are shakeeyyy!

apr, the bbq potato chip and me.

after our girlfight.

turn&smile. no matter who's next to you.

i look retarded. -.-

i didnt even have to pout. naturally adorable!

girlfriends minus zakiah.

add-on by fatin. photo by me :D

invading her self-potraits. hehehe!

thats the end of it. happy looking! :D

today is officially camwhoring day. in class, cam whored with luci jill and zak with luci's cam. then after school. girlfriends minus zak cos she got bio went to yasmine's house. we watched yours, mine and ours! DAMN NICE SHOW!! hahaha. the children are all so cute. and phoebe is soooo pretty. wheee. we camwhored camwhored and camwhored in yasmine's room. so fun la. hehehe. shall post pics later. with my new hair. HAHA. pple say i look like sec2 times, i look cute, i look cacat. i think i look nicer if i dont tie. cos the fringe a little too short. hahahaha. ok. -.-

its such a fuffilled day today. hahah. like i did so many things that ive been wanting to do but never get around to. woke up arnd 11. followed my mum to the dentist had lunch with my parents. then me and my mum went to parkway library. went to cut hair after that. my mum dyed and did a whole load of stuff to her hair. haha. it took like almost 2 hrs. can die la. bought dinner home and then now im online. boring day. -.-