okay. im finally blogging. shall try to update abt what happened on the past few days since monday. :D and to the person that revealed my password and say 'lubb dy lots' on joy's tagboard, im not pissed with you. i find it damn childish. (:

tuesday;
major scolding day again by mr yip. seems like every tuesday we all get a huge scolding from either ms abraham or mdm koh or mr lak during morning assembly. then after that first period onwards is yip's lesson. so he just continues it for whoever. like so lame. aimless scoldings. had art after school. painted our canvases. couldnt finish it. went to eastpoint with yas, nick, ros and nad. hehe. ate BK! finally.

wednesday;
lessons were ok i think. cant remember. had art after that. supposedly to end at 3.20 but it drgged till about 5.30. cos we had to finish our canvases. mine turned out nice. cos of the colour contrast. but it was so god-damned tiring la. didnt go for band cos apr was sick. so me and nad went to her house to slack and stuff. his phone got confiscated cos he was late. sad man.

thursday;
lessons were boring. clara tan is our tcher for SS. hahaa. they all say she look like me. WTH MAN. i so dont think so. -.- haha. we all were like playing with toothpaste. haha. so colgate-ty the whole class.. disgusting also cos it had like yellow stuff on the cover. eww. physics test after school. girlfriends went to simpang to eat. :D

today!
fridays rock for me. i only have PE and chinese. then its 3 periods free. haha. slacked in library. oh. we had 2.4 for pe. okay i guess. i got bullied in the library. then after the pinching i had a bad headache. and the guys left the table cos they thot i was sleeping. -.- sheesh. apr found out about wan. he's so idiotic la. so stupid. then after that she and fatin were bullying me. cos they said i was irritating. I WAS ONLY TRYING TO CHEER APR UP RIGHTTTT... hao xing mei hao bao. ok. whatever with chinese. haha. talked to nick abt some stuffs. shall not say. then went for band. they had parade rehearsal!!! so unfair la. i wanna be in the squad. so blardy unfair. ): then apr was chasing me. and i fell down on my butt cos i bumped into either park or sly. hahaha. so funny please. but my shin hurts. cos i think on of them accidentally kicked me. its like kind of swollen la. so pain.. felt kinda moody after that. cos i was tired and stuff. then my leg hurt so bad. and it was raining. hahaha. out of point!

to apr my loverly;
cheer up girl. i promise not to bully you if you dont bully me anymore! you always gang up with them to bully me la. go pick someone else. before i cry again. hahahaha. DONT THINK ABT WHATEVER SHIT THINGS ALD. think of me. heeeeeh!!

fuck bitch slut whore. your stupid chiam not enough for you? why are you going arnd writing pple testimonials that are so lovey dovey and fucked up?? your breasts are so blardy irritating ok. you and your dumb butterfly tattoo. such a slut please. stop trying to break pple's relationships up. cos it wont work for me.

anyway, forget abt that. just releasing soem anger out. heeeh. im lazy to blog.

IM AT APR'S HOUSE. AND THEY'RE BULLYING ME. SO EVIL81814 14814 89 89H84E NBHEYEYEHASJD,






IM SO STUPID LA

today has been a super boring day. and since im a faithful blogger. i shall still blog no matter how boring this post will be. and its for all bored people online and wasting their time sitting on their asses which are gathering fats by the second as you waste the few precious minutes of your life reading this nonsensesical post. :D still reading? okay. let me begin. i woke up early at arnd 0915 got dressed and ready for church class. left my house at abt 1015 and took a train down to tampines. walked the super long way to church reached there earlier then usual. class was interactive today not as boring as the usual lessons we have which involded listening to fiona and nick talk. went to tamp mall with shermaine aft church to have lunch and bought back mac for my sis and mum. as usual, they were fighting as my sis had slashed her wrist once again despite promising my mum never to do it again the other time. went online and after that watched csi with my mum. fell asleep halfway then woke up to eat dinner which was cup noodles laksa falvoured with hot dogs. took a bath then now im online. SIGHS. WHAT A FUN SUNDAY.

1)tell me now. whats the use? its all a fake. we all put up that front in front of you. dont you get it? bet you soemhow do. i dotn see a change. flirting, face-oriented. this aint working out on how we used to. guess you've changed. but you cant see. but we sure do.

2)STOP BLAMING YOURSELF.

dont try to understand this post. dont fucking care.

didnt use the comp ytd. so im gonna blog now. im such a faithful bloggerrrr. WOOO. ytd was a good day. got back to school. with fridays only having chinese and PE. and free period all the way. so yeah. it was good. went home straight after school with aldie to change and stuff for the Xcountry. met girlfriends at eastpoint to have lunch then we cabbed down to bedok reserviour.

reached there and yilei asked me to just wear to tag as competitior cos arini was doing guides duty. i was like no way im planning to walk. and she said they all planning to walk also. just wear for fun. so ok i wore the dumb pink tag. heeee. i almost died. i swear. the first time ever that i ran during Xcountry. in the end i got 27th place. quite good. hahaha. was so blardy tired. pespiring and all. and my fringe was so screwed. HAHA.

pize presentation was sucky. couldnt hear what the emcees, zak and myn, were saying! it was chaotic. in the end my class boys won 2nd place and us girls won 3rd place! for team. hahah. not bad. went to tamp aft that with the usuals. being apr they all. reached home. SO SHAGGED.

i woke up remembering abt my church activity. haha. and my whole body is aching like shit. so tired. its a long day ahead. shall blog again when i reach home. (:

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'sj says:
miss u cuz cant pinch u n suan u
alyssa says:
hahahahahh! still got miss.
'sj says:
....
'sj says:
cant miss la
'sj says:
later sum1 wack me la
'sj says:
=x
alyssa says:
nooo. wont la.

mervyn. says:
chemmy. im devastated cause you didnt come to school today
mervyn. says:
i almost couldnt pull through today.

LOLOLOLOLOLOL. hahahahahhaahhah!

so i didnt go to school today. slept at 11 last night. and woke up at 2.30 in the afternoon. it was so very very goooooddd. almost orgasmic. LOL. hahaha. no la. not at all. its just good. (: went to eat my home cooked luinch then was on the comp doing my corrections and physics project. aint i good? did it till abt 5 plus. then went to do normal things i did online. friendstering, chatting, blogskining... then went out to meet dy and aldie for dinner. they kept suaning me. usual stuff. just came home. mum not back yet. heeh. thank god.

I need someone to show me the things in life that I can't find
I can't see the things that make true happiness
Make a joke and I will sigh and you will laugh and I will cry
Happiness I cannot feel and love to me is so unreal
And so as you hear these words telling you now of my state
I tell you to enjoy life I wish I could but it's too late.

my stomach and throat hurts like shit. cos of that stupid cough which i have since before the sec1 camp which is the week before the march holidays which is like 3 weeks ago?? freak, imagine having a cough for almost 3 weeks. sheesssh. thats bad. but yeah, whats the use of the doctor? not like he has magic hands..

i think im alright. i think i can manage. i think school will be fine. all the ' i thinks'. why do pple try to act so strong when inside they're actually crumbling? its because they dotn want pple to wry. they dont want all the attention that will be given if they're not alright. im kinda getting sick of school. sec3 life sucks once again. nothing new. it just sucks. although there's like all the friends that you have to joke to cheer you up. sometimes when you sit down and really reflct. its then when you see the ' bigger picture' of life? the bigger picture sucks. there's studies, parents, tchers, siblings, etc etc. so yeah. id rather the smaller picture. if there is even such a thing..

mr yip didnt come today. it resulted in 4 periods of crapping, wrestling, throwing, screaming, fighting, shouting and killing? not that bad yet. err. and the boys talked abt porn. with me sitting in the middle of the whole thing. -.- and we saw the naked pple at the estate again. this time it was a man who looked kinda FAT. ahaha. the last episode which i missed was a fat old lady with sagging breast with the window open. WOOOOHOOO. eww.

i dont feel like going to school tmrw. i dont want to. thursdays are long days and they usually suck. so yeah. no point going i think. with my cough and all. even better. BYE.

HAPPY BDAY MY DEAR!
no matter how cacat, bhb, irritating, insulting, evil, mean, thickskin you are, i will always love you. and you're 17 years OLD ald. act your age please. hahaha. always remember that you're hot and im sexy. HEEEE.

okay, i had no intention of blogging actually. but since its his bday and he asked me to blog so i shall. im so kind! wooo. ytd was an alright day. gave ms abraham my apology letter it was only 200 plus words when i was supposed to write 500. but she didnt say anything. other then good good thank you. lessons were alright too. so happy to be back at schl. although it was kinda tiring. went to eat ljs at sing post with apr, nad, myn, lichin, ros. then me and nad headed to town while they all slacked their asses off at coffee bean. haaha.

today. was the most terrible day ever! got like 5 periods of scoldings from mr yip. he simply wasnt in the mood tday. well, actually every tuesday la. cos he has like 6 periods with us. so he simply scolds scolds and scolds. -.- sheesssh. oh. he thtot us many VALUES tday. hehe.
1) CONSIDER OTHERS BETTER THEN YOURSELF
2) never give a pearl to swines, they will bite you.
something like that. its like so lame please!! he was just trying to waste time. and when he finished saying everything, he was like : haiyer! wasting my time only. we all were : -.-! wth. you made us stay back! sheesssh. he's really weird la. but i still love him. and his sexay hair of course! WHEE.

OHKAY. so my last day of hols wasnt that well spent. actually, my whole hols practically sucked. hmm. except for monday i guess. heeee. then tuesday was doing homewrk day. completed all! how fabulous. then wednesday had the music exchange thing. whole day burned. thursday was the chalet and pit. was kinda good mood but guess it was my fault in the end. sorry dear. friday, spent 4 hrs studying as promised then library and hosp. hmm. not very good huh? saturday and tday was totally BORING. just spent the whole god damned day on the comp slacking my ass off. such lazinesss. HEEE.

tmrw's the start of a new school term. i pray it'll be a better one. one that will lay ms abraham off. and also release me from scoldings. and and and! one that i will faithfully do my homewrk. hahahaha. funny eh? hope tmrw wont suck. ok, basically hope the whole year wont suck.

things are finally looking much better :D havent been blogging cos i wasnt in the mood. thursday was allowed to go for the chalet and pit. but in the end me and nad didnt go to the pit. stayed at the chalet instead. daiyu wasnt feeling that well with all the puking. so yeah. felt guilty about just leaving and going for the chalet. sorry you guys at the pit! missed a whole load of fun as i can see from the photos. haha. ended up feeling emo cos of some reasons.

YESTERDAY! hmm. promised my mum 4hrs of studying before i could go for the chalet. so yeah. woke up, studied. then went to meet apr, nad at tamp library. borrowed books. then went to delifrance to slack. waited for zakiah to come. slacked awhile more. went high with apr. hahaha. then left for the hospitallllll. to visit dy. hmm. me and apr took train while the 2 concession pple took bus. we took like 5 mins and they took almost 20 mins. such a waste of time. boarded the shuttle bus and we saw chermain. NO COMMENTS :D bought flowers really nice ones. then the rest of the guys came and it was like havoc. haha. stayed awhile then left to have dinner with them at eastpoint.

sherman talked to me about chermain. well, he has a point. but i find it real weird if i just go up to her and say stuffs. after all, i never even talked to her before. i can try. but its hard.

anyway, he's gonna get discharged today. yay. hahah. finally. the light at the end of the tunnel. (:

im feeling like fuck now. havent eaten since god knows when. just not in the mood.

OOOOKAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. im so bored. and hungry. and dying. and hoping. and coughing. -.- okay, whatthehell. lets sseeeeee..

i went to school early in the morning today. cos band had theis music exchange thing. met ljr at 0730 at tanah. walked to school. we were EARLYYYY!!! waited waited and waited. then we realised that they were taking attendence in the band room. so we chiong go there. took attendence and went back to foyer to slack and wait for them to carry all the instruments. LOL. we didnt help la. ms azleen asked all of us to fall in. me and junrong didnt hear so we were late. she made those sec1s who were late do pumping. wtf right. so me and junrong just walk away to find ms low and ms alsagofff. she kept calling junrong but yeah who cares la. took the high class bus. the bigger nicer one. blablabla. reached the sengkang sec. then erm. nth nth nth. they practiced. junyuan, seng kang and us. junyuan rocks. so nice please. i think our band sucks compared to them. HAHAHA. cos i wasnt playing. LOLOLOLOLOL. okay, nvm. yeah. we slacked all the way. lunch sucked. pathetic ms chicken. so hungry. apr came later and we shared a cup noodles. then junrong went out to buy porridge. HAHA. blablabla. and now im home.

i hope i can go for the pit and chalet tmrw.
i hope i wont be seeing chermain in school much anymore.
i hope i will have the zeal to go for band.
i hope im gonna play in speech day.
i hope im gonna play in SYF 2007.
i hope mr jais will come back.
i hope i can promise myself to not care about chermain anymore.
i hope i hope i hope :)

tday was a fucked up day. seriously fucked up. at first i was alright in the morning. only that i was kinda tired and half awake. but yeah, i was fine. had the leadership course in school. kinda fun cos of the activities. it was when we all were going out of school. then me and apr wanted to be 'guai' to find out the details for tmrw's music exchange thing. then we went up to weijie. he said he didnt know and pointed to ms azleen and asked us to ask her inmstead. so we did. and before we cld even ask her, she started her stupid sarcastic voice. in front of the whole band squad she sarcastically asked shalbiah to check our attendence. shalbiah said 3. she was like: out of the 14 practices only 3. everyone calculate whats the percentage? pple calculate and said 21%. then she said wahh mean syou 2 have to come for every practice up till june to make up for your attendence. that includes tuition, family problems etc etc. hearing all her crap, i felt like slapping her. then ms low came. and we talked to her instead. in the end in the midst of explaning to her things. abt mr jais and all. we couldnt help but cry. it was like bringing back all the memories.

that was 1 fucked up thing. then the 2nd thing. that bitch slut whore chermain walked past us. and guess what?? she called gave us that look. the damn xia lan look. i was so bloody pissed okay. like hello??! cant you see the situation. wanna give attitude and starre or whatever also wait right. bitch la. wth. totally spoiled my mood. she is so step nicole. two faced bitch. wthwthwth.

and tday's our one month. and i totally spoiled it. i feel so bad. wth. im such a spoiler.

this post is total crap. BYE.

i just came home. im so guai. i was supposed to be home at 7 but i came home at 6. guai right. hahaa. cos nowhere to go also. and he had to go book his bday chalet. went to watch nany mcphee tgether. quite a nice show. funny. i loved the baby and the chubby girl. dont know what name la. i have this feeling my mum wont let me out much this holidays. she was ald complaining abt me going out on the first day. -.- tmrw i have the peer leader leadership training thing. then wednesday most likely going for band. thursday free. friday girlfriends shopping trip plus fatin's bbq. his chalet is from wed to friday. hopefully she'll let me out on thursday then. HOPEFULLY. im so hungry. this post is once again crap. BYE.

okay. my parents are crazy. haha. they bought a so called tv cum monitor screen for me and my sis. and my dad bought a laptop for himself. they were at the computer fair for sooooo blardy long. no wonder. hahaa. and they got a webcam, 512 mb thumbdrive and a mouse free. ahahha. thats the work of my mum. cos she's such a good persuader. this is so random. im hoping my mum will let me go out tmrw. HEHE. :D

okay. for the first time ever ytd.. i had an afternoon nap!! a freaking long one ok! from 4pm-11pm. thats like 7hrs of sleep in the afternoon! hahahaa. cool huh. woke up went to shower then my parents came home with chicken wings and curry fish head. so i ate it as my dinner. so nice. hehe. then i ate pocky milk. so nice again. ohyeah, before i slept i ate ang ku kueh and milo dinosaur. i sound so piggish. eating then sleeping then eating again. LOL! had baby joanne's baptism in the morning. that was why i was so tired. plus just came back from camp and all. HEHE.

im gonna change my blogskin again. cos i find the tagboard irritating. cos you have to like click and wait for it to load just to tag. im making life easier for all of you pple ok. so better tag more. hehehehehehe. apr's so evil. she says my bra's on fire cos i lied. when i didnt. SOBS. she bully meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. ):

tday is such a screwed day. my class got caught for running out of the hall w/o having complete attendence. it was during recess. walked back in and she caught me for attire. damn suay please. looking like a freaking nerd, walked back out. she 'talked' to me and in the end, i had to write a 500 word apology letter about my attire. wtf la. what to freaking write?!? sheesh. then the class leaders had to write the schl rules 3 times and we normal pple had to write it 2 times. such a freaking waste of time ok. prefects had to do some job thing on monday from 8-5 with her. was super bad mood after that la. cos stupid class never line up. then we all kena. such a waste of precious time!!! eergh. didnt get PE cos ms lim wasnt there. erm. did chinese compo test. so screwed. stayed back in school. played hand games. so fun. laughed like crazy. esp that fatin. she drank water and spit it all out on apr. SO FUNNY. i think i shldnt have came to school tday. such a waste of time. stupid blackie. LOL.

its so freaking unfair. i hate it. really hate it. everytime you argue with dad abt her, she escapes everything and i get all the scoldings. have you ever thot abt it? why do you always drag me in to every single blardy thing?!! you wanna talk abt her smoking, talk. dont have to keep shouting at each other behind closed doors. keep everything in there and when you get you, you see me and scream at every single thing im doing. DONT YOU GET IT?! ITS FREAKING UNFAIR. i feel so pressured by you all. now she's retaking her Os. and you nag at me that if i fail my Os you wont let me retake so i better study real hard and blablabla. do you know how streessed and afraid i feel?? and tyou keep telling me not to be like her. im ald trying so hard. you just dont see it. whatever. i take the scoldings if it makes you feel better. everytime i try to explain you cut me off so i dont see the whole point. scream la ok. WHATEVER. )':

finally back from camp!! it felt like such a huge burden to be there. missed my dear so very much. worst thing is my phone somehow was under malaysia line. so he couldnt call through. didnt talk to him for 3days. well, almost 3. i feel like i didnt really do my part as a good student leader there. my heart just wasnt there to be enthu and all. but the sec1s were also not as enthu as last year's batch and we sec3s were as chunfui keep saying 'getting old already'. LOL. went to camp with a sorethroat and cough. so wasnt really in the mood to scream and all. it was fun. but yeah, not enthu and all those..

cant be bothered to blog what we did at camp. water bombs, frisbee, campfire, leadership traning, etc etc. coming back, i think i have slight fever and a bad headache. but im glad to be home. having a supply of hot water. HAAHAHA. i miss him so much. didnt get to talk to him. ):

okay. so im going for the sec1 camp tmrw till thursday. so dont feel like going. sighs. nevermind. i havent even packed. its like in 6 hrs. and i havent even pack. i dont feel at all excited. i havent really decided what to bring. BLA! wth.

im gonna miss saying yoyoyo wassup wassup to everyone who's not going. im gonna miss my class pple (amazingly). im gonna miss mr yip. im gonna miss wednesday's band practice (dont really care). im gonna miss everyone that will miss me. ESP my dear. ): hopefully there's like reception over at the campsite. not msia's reception but spore's. ohwells. HOPEFULLY LA.

coming back on thursday. good thing is i will miss thursday lessons. hehhe. then come back in time for friday's super fun PE and free period. and CCA w/o the conductor.. hahaha. so fun. then it'll be holidays by then. WOOHOOO!!

okay, nevermind. my new blogskin rocks. dont you think so?
LASTLY, I KNOW YOU ALL WILL MISS ME ALOT WHEN IM GONE. TRY TO HOLD BACK THOSE TEARS OKAY? I WILL MISS YOU ALL TOO..
okay, its like 3days2nights only. -.-

im so forgetful. i just remembered my AMATHS CT is tmrw! and i havent studied! how smart la! eerghh. shitshitshit. im so kanchiong. i only remembered when i saw luci at parkway just now with thom studying. so evry smart. nevermind..

so tired. i ahvent eaten my dinner. and i feel weird. i dont know why either. i think i have a headache and yet its like not there. i think i have tummy pain but its like not really there either. feel weird. im definately having a sorethroat. i dont know how im gonna cope with sec1 camp. i dont feel like going at all. sighs. so many things. and everyone blames me for the breakup. say its my fault. no one heard MY side of the story. dont judge like that. you're not perfect either ok. freak. bitch. pain in the ass!!! &*^&*%#*%*@#(*@#&*(

okay. im so smart. i screwed my art up. AHHHH. it was supposed to look grunge. but it now looks so primary school art. SHIT LA!!! eerghh!! whatever. hopefully it can look grunge with some splatter painting and stuff. -.-

havent been blogging the past few days. nothing to blog about. ive been hearing my parents nag for the whole day ald. im so sick of it. although they're not nagging at me. still, its so sick. ah, whatever. BYE

yoyoyo. im so bored. got back most of my results.

english - 25/40
chinese - 25.5/50 (passed!)
Emaths - 28/40 ( a freakin' A2!!)
physics - 14/25
chemistry - 11.5/25 (failed by 1 mark)
Social Studies - 7/12
literature - 13.5/25

kinda crappy. borderline passes.. but i was so shocked with my Emaths. i was sleeping halfway tday then zakiah nudged me and said i got A2! woah, immediately awake.. hahaha. yay! so happy.. SS also not too bad. lit is abit depressing. but amongst everyone its like average. tday got 'scolding' from mr yip. cos of junrong's thing.. damn retarded la. ohyah, we're gonna do collage for art! im excited but lazy to start. hahahha. mrs jonoh got me excited by showing us the pics and all.. so cool please. HAHA. i cant believe i failed my chemistry.. so sad. so much for being stronger in chem then physics huh. haha. i cant wait for tmrw. cos its a friday! hahaha. i love fridays. free period all the way man. light bag, aircon, ipod, simpanging. haha. so fun. im so crappy. i dont know what to blog la. -.-