here goes my very INTERESTING day. sighs. skool as usual. didnt talk much, was kinda depressed. untill lian lesson, last few minutes. PPL started to DISTURB me. flying erasers EVERYWHERE. seriously, EVERYWHERE. including my BAG. wow~ i was like the MAIN TARGET. haha. lalala. was like screaming. hahah. retarded man. den me & zak ate in school cos she wanted to see *someone*. hahahah. cute sehh. im happy for yoo darl. :) den we walked to tanah merahh to take train to HEEREN. YAY!! haha. i bought hairband & some hair tie. AT LAST! den we wenta take PRINTS. haha. our routine larhh. cant help it. & i put my wallet on the ledge of the machine. den aft taking, we went outside to deco it. wait for it to print. wenta cut. both of us like so damn happy lidat. haha. den i realised something: MY WALLET WAS NOT WITH ME!!!!!!!! arghhhh. i panicked. seriously, panicked. both of us went to ask arnd & try to find it. couldn't find! :(( arghh. shiity lor. i am like SO DAMN BLOODY SAD & PISSED. the person who took my wallet is SO EVIL!!! hmprh. hope your wallet get lost nxt time & ppl take it. den yoo'll see how it feels. sighs. my favourite neos are inside lehh!! haiss. the ones withh zak & indahh! hmrphh. so now i dunt have an ez-link or the back gate key pass. G-R-E-A-T!! hais. zak wanted to walk somemore so we walked to cenileisure. saw SLY. HEHs. he was doing some kind of catwalk. haha. & he looked so WHITE withh all the make-up. haha. WEIRD-ED. me & zak walked arnd aimlessly. we felt like tt cos the WHOLE PLACE WAS DESERTED. haha. like some kind of disaster was abt to happen & everybodee stayed indoors. hahah. we admired MANYMANY stuffies. but with my lost wallet, we realised tt NO MONEY NO TALK. ARGHHHH. fcuk larhh. if i was a rich girl. hahaha. okayys. nth to say already.
EXCEPT TT IM GG TO KILL THE PERSON
WHO TOOK MY WALLET. :))))
`alyssa
7:14 PM
just reach hme! hehs. damn fuggin hungry. damn fuggin BROKE. arghh. dammit. hahaha. tdae was kinda FUN larhh. except some bastard tt called me a crazee bitch. RYTE??!! hahah. okok, jk only. just 1 request frm yoo tt i have. nxt time yoo see me, call me QUEEN. kayys?? hahaha. had 2.4 tday. it was terrible. so many ppl felt like vomitting. including me, yuehli, vel etc. but i passed. mr roshkaidar bruff me lor. he say tt girls left 1 mins. so i chiong all the way. den in the end tt timing was for the boys? yeahh! wadd the hell.. hahah. but never mind. at least my timing was good lor. den during recess & 2 periods aft, peer leaders did the temasek poly thingy again. hahah. pon 1 period of ms chia's lesson AGAIN. YAY! but im kinda scared lor. cos the chpt she teaching now is difficult. den i dunt reallie understand. sighss. never mind, ill go figure. im scared of MID-YEARS. serious. i feel so damn bloody slack. like never pay attention in class & all. sighs. i wanna go 3@ still lidat. ARGHH. hopeless me. okay, side-track! well, had english test. was kinda hard. but i think can make it larhh. HOPEFULLY. den ms lian took over 2 GW periods. WAHH. *faints* sian sia. den she say want to give me detention cos i kepp laughing & talking. hahah. dunno larhh. she revised with us map-reading stuffs. BORED-ED out of my spirit man. im CONFUSED. seriously so confused. guess yoo're just shy in class. but please dunt change our friendship yarhhs?
*im confused.*
*i dunt think im ready to accept yoo*
*cos im still in love withh another.*
*im SORRY.*
`alyssa
4:06 PM
yes, i was BORED.
7:35 PM
HEHs. just came back frm indah's hse. me & zak went there for a guess wadd?? SWIM!! hahaha. okayys, lamee. first wenta my hse to get the stuff needed. i felt like i was gg to run away frm hme mann. cos i didnt want to let my dady noe. so we packed pizza & clothes. hahah. like our meagre supply of stuff b4 we go homeless & hungry. hahaha. WEIRD. den we made our way to indahh's hse. haha. had fun in skool tdae. skipped 1 period of SCIENCE!! woots. haha. cos peer leaders had to help the temasek poly ppl sell some stuff i think for their project or something. haha. so we all helped out. they selled this apple chocalate thingy. bought & shared with zak! YUMMY! haha. bought some clips too! heehee. bought 2 pairs. one for me & the other for zak. haha. NICE SEHH. wanted to buy an even nicer pair BUT it was too expensive. sighs. i reallie loved tt one. ermm, my dae was at last interesting. except sometimes. things like when i have to do a chinese COMPO. arghh. to hell withh chinese larh. just throw all the scripts, exam papers into the toiletbowl & FLUSHH. WOOSSHH. all GONE. den the whole world will REJOICE! YIPEE. okay, im getting crazee at the thot of no more chinese. haha. ms chia picked on me AGAIN. when will she ever stopp? BITCH. ohhyarhh! hehs. me, zak & rimiko drew on jason's hand tdae! hahaha. so fun. we write he love US. hahaha. & dotted him all over. wahah. to all 2@ ppl, if yoo all still wanna have chalet. PLEASE co-operate withh us!!
`alyssa
6:37 PM
sighs. wth larhh. dunno why nowadays so damn moody. ARGH. sorry to all the ppl who i anyhow scolded. reallie sorrie. ermm, had assembly tdae. they gave out the student of the term award. was kinda boring larhh. dunno why must have an assembly esp for such stuff. STUPPID. the hme econs ppl make sherpard's pie tdae. the smell was so tempting itell yoo.. hahah. den the xiling keep tempting ppl with it. im gonna get sick soon. sighs. this SUCKS. totally SUCKS. sorethroat. blablabla. wtf lor. MID YEARS coming lehh!!! bastard. im afraid of mid-years. havent reallie started studying yet. & it's like wadd? NEXT WK?? arghh. so stress larhh. pluss all this xtra xtra stuppid petty stuff. i cant stand it already. stoppit will yoo? please? sighs. had same recess with sec4s tdae. ***** was dere. sat the table nxt to hers larhh. stuppid. diao wadd sia. BITCH. gett of my backk. go AWAY. just mind your own buisness. i dunt care wadds happening in your personal life so dunt bother bout mine. just FARK off. sighs. everybodee seems to be fallin out with friends. i dunno who to trust anymore. who to believe. who to tell my secrets to. esp the times when i reallie nid to explode & scream. it's not tt easy to start. i wish shermainey was here, she's the one person i trust, love & adore. she's the greatest friend yoo can ever have. & yet, dere's not a chance. either ppl will be dere or someone will interfere. BUGGERS. dunt pretend yoo care just so tt yoo can noe my deepest secrets. DUNT. please dunt. it will hurt even more when i find out. i want to tell someone everything. it's just tt i dunt noe who to trust anymore. seriously. this is so sadd. friends are supposed to be ppl who yoo can confide to. NOT ppl who in the end will backstabb yoo or even spread your secrets.
WHO CAN I TRUST?
* without yoo it's hard to survive.*
*can i have yoo backk?*
`alyssa :((
5:47 PM
In the presence of him,
you pretend to ignore him,
and look away.
But hoping that he'll look your way.
But when he is no longer there,
you look around to find him.
And get so disappointed to know that he is gone.
Although you are talking to someone else,
your eyes are fixed on him.
You find your textbooks filled with his name.
And in the midst of your school desk,
you could actually spot his name there.
Everytime your handphone beeps,
you hope to see his name..
When it's not him,
you get so depressed.
When your phone gets quiet,
you have the temptation to sms him.
When he doesn't reply,
you let your imagination run wild and get so sad.
Cos you feel unimportant to him.
And sometimes wonder,
if he had even forgotten your existance.
Three quarters of your handphone inbox are his smses.
And you find yourself unable to delete any one of them.
When you really have to, you feel your heart ache.
When there's a new movie out,
the first person you WISHED to watch with, is him.
But always end up watching it with your friends.
When people mention the words " Valentines Day",
The first thing that appears in your mind, is his name.
You realise that your conversations with your friends
never fail to include him in your topic.
You worry if he would fall for someone else,
And it hurts when you know that the person will never be you.
You find yourself getting so affected
by just one word or action from him.
Sometimes you get angry with him for some reasons,
and feel yourself hating him.
But once you see him again,
your heart melts, and find yourself loving him, once more.
You swore for more than a hundred times never to sms him again,
But found yourself sending a message,
and the receipient, is him.
You try to forget him
But got reminded of your memories with him.
Many times, you force yourself to stop liking him,
But found it even harder than killing yourself.
IGUESSIMSTILLINLOVEWITHYOO.
6:24 PM
i feel like screaming my lungs out.
the more i think the more i regret.
sighss. did i make a mistake by running away?
shud i have plucked up my coureage & talked to yoo?
wadd would yoo say? wadd would I say?
ARGHH. shittadeedoda larhh.
dunno wad to do already.
bruised & battered by your words.
dazed & shattered how it hurts.
iSTILLloveyoo.
5:17 PM
tdae was a boring dae. cos 2@ had alot of free periods. den me & zak made faiz cry? i duno if it's cry or wadd larh. but he was sadd. sighss. SORRIE FUZZY!! dunt sad larhh, think happy thoughts. reallie very sorrie larhh. din mean it in tt way. hope yoo feel betta tmrw. i am crazee. crazze over AQUALIP. yoo noe the pen tt can draw on nails? yeahh. tt one. hhaa. was palying with them thruout the whole dae. haha, was damn bored larhh. i like the clear & black one. shitty larhh. im out of $$. arghhh. irritating. wenta siglap centre's mac tdae. with yuehli & vel2yn. hahaha. new name for vel. im so lazy to blog already.
`alyssa
4:48 PM
ARGHH. anyone noticed tt all the tag-boards are not workin? i swear. it's so super duper irritating! wadds happenning man. im so glad tt the 25th anniversary is over. sighs. but why do i feel so stressed still? HUH? sighs. this world sucks. TOTALLY. ohh well. so the new pope is benedict the 16th. wow wee~ nth's ever going right. where is the good life i had? WHERE?? no one will ever see, hear or even feel wadd i am going thru. NO ONE. i tried so hard to change. but still, no one's satisfied. mayb it has becomed worse. im so tired of all this JUNK. wadds the use? i feel like im living for other ppl. not for myself.
`alyssa
2:24 PM
okay, firstly. HAPPY 25th ANNIVERSARY to BDS. haha. LAME. the learning fiesta was quite alright tdae. THANK GOD. saw many graduatEES. haha. yepp, ppl like bendy & all. sighss. MISS them all. i wenta skool LATE. HEHs. everyone was already there. den i went dere like an idiot. quickly rushed to the hme econ rm to make the peppermint tea. was REALLY tired already. luckily xiling they all helped. set-up the stall.. YEAH. tired like hell lor. den some students bought our stuff. haha. was so tired larh. went arnd giving out brochures, saw benedict they all larhh. sighs. nvm. nth to say. kiang tuck was like: eh! benedict over there! go talk to him! den i was like thinking: HUH? ermm, OKAY.. went arnd looking for the hongyi also cos he owe me cd. den wen to the new AIR-CON NPCC rm with him to take. slack dere while he ate. so nice!! haha. den went arnd giving out brochures again. mainly was like running arnd the whole skool larhh! damn bloody tiring. haha. but it was fun i guess.. HEHs. & we finished selling all the stuff b4 2! haha. stupid glenn was dere also. haha. insulted my product.. haha. but i guess it was really, not sweet? yepp. so understandable larhh. haha. okayys, i gtg CSC liaos.
`alyssa
4:02 PM
DONT WANNA TALK ABOUT TDAE.
IT WAS JUST SO SCREWED UP.
ALL THE FARKED-UP PPL.
CANT WAIT TILL TMRW IS OVER.
`ALYSSA
7:16 PM
tdae was a very FARKED up dae. seriously. i SUPER HATE MS CHIA. SHE IS SUCH A FARKING BITCH. she scolded me tdae. like WTF. SUPER DUPER FARKED UPPPP!!!! ARGHHH. she spoiled my mood for the whole dae can? BITCH. can go ask faiz. he totally noticed. can i strangle her neck & make her die a slow, painful death? okayy, obscene post tdae. had a reallie bad dae larhh. cant help it. ms fong lesson was super duper boring also. couldnt be bothered with the flying erasers. super sian larh. like dunno wad lidat larh. REALLY BAD DAE. all cos of the ms chia. i have to finish this post b4 my parents reach hme. too obscene already. feel like cutting myself again. the pressure is too great. reallie. sighss. went to bedok tdae with hsin rui, vibian & yuehli. sian larhh. only BK was fun. PATHETIC ryte? haiss.i have nth to say anymore.
`alyssa
6:31 PM
HEHs. tdae was a weirdd dae. yepps, dunno why also. just felt well, WEIRD. haahh. nth much happened though. D&T was plainly fooling arnd in class again. din do ANYTHING at all. okayy, me & zheyu (ji yu) drawed valerie on the whiteboard. also trumpet. hahah. den all the hme econ prefects came up to remind the prefects in D&T to go to the hall. went outside play play play. haha. LAME. dun wanna say wad lame thing i did larh. reallie very crappy. haha. had prefects investiture for assembly. quite nice larh. the way the line up very wah sehh~! haha. but 1 thing was WEIRD again. the song they played while the whole thing was happening. guess wad song? welcome to my life by simple plan.wahahha. laughed my head off with jason can. haha. we like said at the same time, HUH? why they play this kind of song?? hahahahah. siao lor. like it's a prefect investiture den have to be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark. HUHHHUUHH???!! hahaha. okayy, im evil. IM EVIL ORANGE PON LOVER. as said by EVIL LEMON FUZZY WUZZY. no fair. his name is nicer den mine. hahah. lame. my butt hurts now. haha. kayys. dun feel like typing liaos.
`alyssa
7:56 PM
i reached hme early tdae. cos vel & xiling had orchestra. so left me & yuehli. she wanted to go hme so well, i had to go hme also wadd. bus-sing was a very boring thing. hungry & cold. stuppid air-con larhh. haiyo. lucky 155 was not long. saw alwyn & tanya. well well well, they're tgether. HEH. evil me. yeahh, kamal & the other 2e guy also there larhh. can tell they paiseh. haahh. i think some ppl were filming on the other side of the road. saw the big hairy microphone thingy. haahh. have been online frm just now till now. hearing blue ridge & singapore rhapsody makes me cry. somemore is the SYF `05. haiss. never mind bandits. wadds done is done. dun cry anymore, get ready for `07 instead. GOLD or SILVER? which will we choose? i choose GOLD. extra effort. xtra xtra effort please. sighss. no more sec4s!! how?! we can still do it de! dun worry. just work very doubly hard. posts on the bdsBAND blog make me wanna cry. promise i will work hard for LA STORIA SYF `07. & i want mr JAIS. no one else. he's our big motivator. our big dady. always. heard tt he was sadd tt we cried. guess he was sadd also. all the scoldings were for our own good & yet we never listened. sigghss. i fell guilty to the ppl who worked xtra hard for this SYF. they deserved SILVER or mayb even GOLD. not bronze. definately not bronze. to all seniors! i will miss all the fun games, activities, dinner or lunches & outings with yoo guys. all the support & help yoo all gave us. A BIG THANK YOO! but i think the greatest thank yoo would be a gold or silver in `07! ryte? okayys. stopping here.
I LOVE BDS BAND.
4:59 PM
OMGOSH!! fete of temptation!
woohoo~!
hot chicks. hot bods. hot lingerie.
wow wee~ hahah.
yeahh, did anyone watch fete of temptation last night?
it totally rawked.
yepp. im a BRA-FANATIC as said on my desk cover.
wonder if zak watched?
my BRA partner.
although we are all sports bra.
but yeahh, fete of temptation!!!!
okay, stoppit alyssa.
but seriously, if they show it again, WATCH it.
okay, went to church.
usual stuff. mass den cathechism.
cat class was FIONA, NICK & SMILING BUDDHA tdae.
was alright. other den the stuppid air-con right above us.
us as in shermainey, me & trisha.
haahh. lovey them.
& tdae was the first time i EVER had a break during cat class.
haha. i know, PATHETIC.
haha. cant help it, not my fault. had a 3 min break.
& guess wadd? the stuppid aaron freak
had MARCARONI from the church canteen in 3 MINS!!
yeahh, as i said, he's a FREAK. bloody pervert.
okayys, so after cat class went to tam-pines mall with my sis to eat.
ate beef noodles. YUMMY~!
haha. aft tt walk walk walk arnd.
went to umeya. bought some stuff.
walk walk walk somemore. went to mini toons.
bought gummies!
den walk walk walk to buy bubble tea!
i think im a bubble tea freak.
haha. den went hme.
reach hme i did assesment! maths! im so GUAI. HEH.
`alyssa
8:03 PM
just got back frm ALOT of crapping & all. haahh.
tdae was FUN FUN FUN.
seriously. never had so much fun since tt dae.
haahh. stayed back tdae.
actually for the presentation but
in the end i didnt go & went for band instead.
band was kinda fun.
guess LA STORIA is gonna be our 2007 SYF choice piece.
yepp, tried playing it tdae.
only made it thru the first few nice bars.
den my lips pain. haahh.
sec1s had drill.
helped kel & min qi with it.
sec1s are reallie very idiotic.
they just dun wanna listen lor. sighs.
damn childish also.
pity the leaders who will be selected this year.
haahh. they gonna have a hard time lor.
drilled, crapped & all the stupid stuff.
den aft all the sec1s went home,
me, zheyu, tingyi & kel
played with the mace.
maja damn pro lor.
he can throw damn high,
as high as skool building, i think.
den aft tt we all went back to the band rm.
not all larhh, only me, zheyu & huizhen.
yiling kept asking us who shud tbe the next batch of leaders.
den zheyu kept crapping & making us laugh.
reallie not like her.
we only left at arnd 7
cos alot of ppl hungry.
haha. went to the bus stop.
14 took damn long lor.
den aft a while, all the NPCC ppl & CO ppl came out.
alot of sec4s.
wait wait wait.
den we sian so deceided to walk.
den finally the bus came!
2 at the same time!
so we all ran back to try to catch the 2nd one.
kel didnt make it lor.
went upstairs, saw kiangtucky.
he say he gg clubbing
i jealous larh.
sighhs. nvm.
so we met kel at LJS.
crapped & crapped.
jimmy went with us.
he has a super LONG neck man.
haha. giraffe, OOPPSS.
den aft tt me, kel & cheesim took train.
me & cheesim had a plan to make kel miss his stop.
wahhaha. only junrong will noe.
okayy, only ppl who take train with them b4 will noe.
haha, so kel missed his stop at kembangan.
so he stopped at eunos & took back to kembangan.
hahahah. can die laughing.
stuppid guy, who ask him keep wacking my head.
hahah. RETRIBUTION.
`alyssa
10:12 PM
just got back frm ALOT of crapping & all. haahh.
tdae was FUN FUN FUN.
seriously. never had so much fun since tt dae.
haahh. stayed back tdae.
actually for the presentation but
in the end i didnt go & went for band instead.
band was kinda fun.
guess LA STORIA is gonna be our 2007 SYF choice piece.
yepp, tried playing it tdae.
only made it thru the first few nice bars.
den my lips pain. haahh.
sec1s had drill.
helped kel & min qi with it.
sec1s are reallie very idiotic.
they just dun wanna listen lor. sighs.
damn childish also.
pity the leaders who will be selected this year.
haahh. they gonna have a hard time lor.
drilled, crapped & all the stupid stuff.
den aft all the sec1s went home,
me, zheyu, tingyi & kel
played with the mace.
maja damn pro lor.
he can throw damn high,
as high as skool building, i think.
den aft tt we all went back to the band rm.
not all larhh, only me, zheyu & huizhen.
yiling kept asking us who shud tbe the next batch of leaders.
den zheyu kept crapping & making us laugh.
reallie not like her.
we only left at arnd 7
cos alot of ppl hungry.
haha. went to the bus stop.
14 took damn long lor.
den aft a while, all the NPCC ppl & CO ppl came out.
alot of sec4s.
wait wait wait.
den we sian so deceided to walk.
den finally the bus came!
2 at the same time!
so we all ran back to try to catch the 2nd one.
kel didnt make it lor.
went upstairs, saw kiangtucky.
he say he gg clubbing
i jealous larh.
sighhs. nvm.
so we met kel at LJS.
crapped & crapped.
jimmy went with us.
he has a super LONG neck man.
haha. giraffe, OOPPSS.
den aft tt me, kel & cheesim took train.
me & cheesim had a plan to make kel miss his stop.
wahhaha. only junrong will noe.
okayy, only ppl who take train with them b4 will noe.
haha, so kel missed his stop at kembangan.
so he stopped at eunos & took back to kembangan.
hahahah. can die laughing.
stuppid guy, who ask him keep wacking my head.
hahah. RETRIBUTION.
`alyssa
10:12 PM
okayy, so we got BRONZE. sighs.
cried my heart out!! loadsa ppl did.
i still think we all deserved silver.
seriously, we all played well.
cos when i had tummy ache, i sat wif the alumni.
den i listened to the band.
yoo all reallie made me feel like crying.
i was like so touched. reallie very nice.
sighs. no right to blame anyone larh.
1BAND1SOUND. remember?
so there's no point blaming anyone.
had tummy ache during the night yest.
we all stayed-over in skool cos we had to wake up very early; 4 am.
sighs. guess everyone is disappointed.
esp. ppl who worked hard. feel so bad lor.
they did their best & got pulled down by us morons.
ARRGGHH. can i scream?
sighs. but at least we all noe tt we tried our best.
stage-fright. so wadd? at least we tried.
shall tell yoo all abt yest when we slept in skool.
aft skool, went to tam-pines mall to buy the glitter hair spray.
went there with cheesim & amelia.
took same bus as kiangtucky & friends.
found out something which reallie depresses me. sighs. WHY??!!
went to 77th street to get the spray. & guess wadd?!
they didnt have any more glittered ones!
den we were like rushing to get back at 3 & it was already 2.40.
went to century square YELLOW to try to find.
didnt have.
so cheesim quickly called ms alsagoff
to ask for permission to go for band late so we could get the spray.
so we made our way down to bugis's 77th street to get it.
den i saw a SUPER DUPER NICE WRIST BAND.
yeahh, it was the last piece. den i bought it. price will not be said.
they didnt have the gold glitter spray so we bought the silver one.
den on the way to mrt me & amelia bought chendol!
3 bucks. lil' bit expensive larh.
reach skool, had full band.
den my stupid tummy ache came.
couldnt even play can?!
arghh. so i sat with the alumni.
bathed, with super freezing cold water.
can die one leh.
had full band all the way until night, but i couldnt play.
den didnt sleep till very late lor.
cos the damn floor was so hard.
talk on the fone with someone.
morning wake up.
ate in bus. den performance lor.
lalala. gtg.
`alyssa
9:29 PM
okayy, im reallie very suay tdae.
mr ghazali didnt come tdae!!
argh. so sadd. no literature.
so we all played charades. yeah, lame.
okayy, so im gonna get questioned tmrw.
damn farked up lor. stupid bitch.
so wadd if i noe your whole entire farked up life?
like i care about your life?
yoo have nothing to do with me anyway.
so just go away larhh, bitch.
i can tell the whole damn world if i want to.
yoo cant stop me. so just shut your tits.
okay, i just got a call frm someone larh.
damn farked-up now, by the bitch.
dunno wad gonna happen tmrw already. never mind.
she can go say all she wants.
say until her mouth no more saliva.
dun wanna bother bout this kind of ppl.
okay, continue bout my day.
yeah, so i was very suay tdae larh.
was like telling huifang to act out the charades thingy
& saying confirm wont call index no. 1 de!
den the stupid ms chan called out, guess wadd? NO. 1 !!
haha, damn jinx i tell yoo.
the whole damn dae is just too boring to describe.
other den me failing my ting xie
& falling asleep during ms fong (maths) lesson
cos the rain made the weather so damn cold.
yeahh. ohh! poked myself with the darn needle loadsa times also.
cos of the stupid art - tie & dye.
den we had band. it was alright cos DALE was conducting.
he's good. very good.
well, tts my opinion. dunno bout yours.
if yoo're in band, tt is. okay, lame.
was walking with tingyi, zheyu & huizhen
den i received my mumie's sms.
NO FOOD AT HME.
hahaha. so went to have dinner with kelvin they all. pluss DALE!
haha. okay, im nervous bout tmrw's assembly performance
& thursdae's SYF. arghh. wish us luck okay.
`alyssa
9:55 PM
kinda just got back frm band.
SO TIRED!!!
the sun was soooo bloody idiotic lor.
shine until we all pespiring like siao.
was so dizzy lor.
cos i only ate like a pack of 3 oreos? yarhh!
din drink much water also, which made it worse.
i think the band is improving larhh.
aft all the practicing, i think we improved.
although i played wrong notes & made a fool of myself.
haahh. yeahh, i din noe it was a Bnatural.
sighs, nvm. i will practice.
SYF is in like 5 more days!
can yoo believe it, time passes so FAST.
sectional was productive although it didnt last long.
den when it came to the last full band
when we all had our FULL UNIFORMS on,
we did like the whole rehearsal thingy,
didnt stop until the stupid nicvinder
had to play her bloody 2 bars on the tambourine wrongly.
we all were like so damn tired already den she had to play wrongly.
STUPID.
den mr jais made us do the whole song all over again.
AARRGGGGGHHHH. dammit.
so we played the whole thing all over again.
my arms were like aching the hell up lor.
tdae at havelock rd there will be a VINTAGE FLEA MARKET!!
arrrggghhh. i wanna go. zak told me bout it.
but i cant go lor, have CRAIG's bdae party.
he's 21. lucky guy. hahah, can do loadsa stuff already. ahah.
it will be at sentosa coasta sands. dunno how the hell im gonna get there lorr. haahh. prolly take cab larh. sighss. okayy. doneded.
`alyssa
3:46 PM
jay chou makes me cry.
sighs. everytime i hear his songs, i think back.
think back to the times tt we had.
the good, the bad.
the happy, the sad.
SHEwillNEVERbeTHEsameAGAIN.
fromTHATdayTILLtheENDofTIME.
thereWILLalwaysBE.
aDEEPcutINherHEART.
onlyHEcanHEAL.
sheBLED&CRIEDforHIM.
wasSHEbeingFOOLISH?
maybe.
BUTsheTHINKS.
itWASallWORTHit.
WISHINGsheCOULDturnBACKtime.
GObackTOthatTIME.
thatONLYshe&HIMwillKNOW.
thatPRECIOUSsms.
STILLinTHEphone.
TRYINGsoHARDtoFORGET.
butITjustSEEMSimposible.
WHY?
cosSHEstillHAShim.
INthatSECRETplace.
REALLYtryingHER.
veryBESTtoFORGET.
butSHEknowsTHAT.
nothingWILLeverBE.
theSAMEsinceHEwasGONE.
-lyssa
7:21 PM
im beat. yeah, tiring dae although fun.
sighss. found out about something yest.
it's so SADDENING lorr.
wasted man!! sighs.
but guess it's just my luck.
so cute, i tell yoo. ahem!!
arghh. okayy, calm down.
seriously so wasted. sighss.
guess it's just fate.
okayy, im repeating myself. lame.
school was the same old boring thursday.
yeahh. stupid YIPITTY YIP made us stay back AGAIN.
fark larhh. stay back for like 20 minutes can??
arghh. idiot. den i was like so freaking hungry..
den wanted to go siglap centre to eat mac.
den saw hsin rui & mel, they supposed to go maths remedial
but in the end they followed us.
took so damn bloody long to leave skool lorr.
they like talk to the soccer boys.
den thinking whether to stay in skool to watch the match
or go remedial or go siglap centre.
ARGH. haha. was so hungry lor.
okayy, inthe end we took the
same bus as nicholas, suratman & a few other sec4s.
haahh. den 1 guy used nik's fone to take a video.
den i turned back to talk to mel & was caught in it!
haahh. okayy, nvm larhh.
hope they deleted it lorr.
sure look so fugly.
eat eat talk talk laugh laugh crap crap lala at siglap mac.
so many ppl there. mostly temasek & st puts (st. pats).
yeahh. den i went hme.
so guai ryte?
haha. saw sayhai in his neck thingy.
haahh. havent give him his 'present'.
heehee. xP
ohhyarh! i have this sudden fettish for RED.
dun ask me whyy. i dun noe!
-lyssa
6:32 PM
okayy! i know my blogskin doesnt fit my song!
but i love this tong hua.
so yeah, i dun care.
gonna change my blogskin soon. comment kayy?
11:01 PM
haahh, just ironed my clothes.
so had time to blog.
skool was FUN tdae.
at last a nice dae.
crapped wif LOADSA ppl.
haahh. including kamal.
haahh. yeahh, we were like making our whole class into a 'zoo'.
giving ppl nicks like giraffe, pig, etc..
haahh. weird.
den crapped & ate in calss thru the whole dae.
ms chelvam is totally BLIND.
zak fed me the bread she brought
in front of ms chelvam & she didnt even see!
seriously blind man.
sadd life.. haahh.
den aft skool had band.
was kinda tired. arms aching & all.
so was damn sleepy.
den tt STUPID KIANGTUCKY had to keep making me laugh
while i was supposed to play.
so irritating! stupid guy.
never write for me proper testis somemore dare to ask me for 3 more!
dunno yoo already larhh. so evil..
so we had i think 3 hrs of full band.
most of the time i was sleeping.
haahh. the sophian came to conduct us.
dun understand his conducting AT ALL!
so confusing.
lost my band file! G-R-E-A-T!
timing so zun lorr, SYF coming lehh!
shitadeedoda.
havent polish instrument.
hair's so diff to tie bun. GREATY!
so suay. but still, it's our playing tt will count!!
pray for us on the 14 of APRIL at arnd 12.30pm kayy?
THANKIES. hope to get a GOLD or at least SILVER.
believe we can do it!
tues assembly performance. cant wait!!
haahh. but a lil' nervous also larhh.
aft band it rained AGAIN.
waited for the darned 14 for so long.
can die there lor.
den waited for 24 for so long also.
sighs. almost missed my stop.
haahh, was taking a nap.
i think it was a nap. oppss.
-lyssa
10:55 PM
just came back frm a havoctic project wrk meeting at indah's hse.
i swear i could have just strangled her neck.
im evil, but she's worse.
never do anything.
only one sentence: yoo can drink our product because it is hygenic.
WTF!!!
okayy, so indah, me & zak did the english & gw while she went hme.
WTF again.
den when i took bus hme,
the bus was like so crowded but the bus driver was sooo nice!
so polite, although the tk ppl didnt listen to him & move in..
but still he remained calm!
nice lorr.
khei left this morn.
didnt get to send her off.
sighs.
my day was brightened up by darling zak during english lesson.
well, b4 english lesson.
she took my natrually bitchy badge & put it on her uni.
yarhh! & went arnd protruding herself
showing everybody in class & laughing her head off.
sighs. love her man.
reallie BRIGHTENED my day.
lazy to describe all tt she did.
but i love her to bits.
`alyssa
6:17 PM
sighs. life is getting worser & worser by the seconds.
i guess im just such a farking farked up person.
yeahh, hate myself. reallie HATE myself.
not fated in this farking world at all. FARK!
yeahh, sorrie to all my church ppl.
sorrie for all the vulgarities yoo all have to endure just to read my blog.
my day was so not fun at ALL.
& to make my mood worse, IT RAINED.
& everytime it RAINED this few days, i would think of him.
sighs. trying to irritate myself only.
dunno whyy zak was in a very not-playful mood.
sighs. PMS? yeahh, think so bah.
sighs. bored myself thru practically the whole dae?
yeahh, im good at tt.
sighs. dunno how im gonna make it to nxt year lorr.
sighs. life sucks to the apple core.
reallie sucks.
so many restrictions, demands, expectations..
& the list still goes on. sighs. SUCK!
okayy, my dae. mass run. literature. recess. crapping during recess.
den i think is maths arhh? or english. den had maths test.
quite okay, THANKFULLY.
den art. poke myself wiff the STUPID needle so many times.
fed-up. didnt sew. crapped wif ppl.
called khei ILLEGALLY at the bus-stop
cos she supposed to meet us in skool but didnt.
den meet her at parkway.
she took so bloody long.
eat, den took loadsa pics.
me, yuehli & hsin rui brought our cameras.
woohoo. photo spree i tell yoo..
haha. den aft tt shopp.
empty walleted went hme.
khei was so happy tt the *** write in the bk lorr. hahah.
LOVE YOO FOREVER KHEI!
`alyssa
she's leaving tmrw!
sighs. gonna miss yoo loads.
love ya girlie.
cya in the airport tmrw at 5.30am yarhh.
guess tt will be the last time until october.
sighs. miss ya. *muuaahhhs!!
6:29 PM
sighs. april has come. another monthe gone by without any accomplishments. okay, maybe just one, scoring tops for my english? yeah. tts ALL. saddening. had band tdae. woke up late. rained heavily. took 14 to skewl. late for band. was supposed to reach at 7.45 to tie bun wiff hsin rui but reached at 8.15. so clever, alyssa. den rush to set up instrument. had full band. sectionals was fun, LUCKILY! den full band again. think we all played well. very touching & well, nice. felt like crying again cos of the darn rain. uniform & instrument check by majar they all. uniform good but instrument needed to be polished! sighs. din bring back instrument larhh. cos wed bag very heavy. SYF coming soon. 14 APRIL. open to public i think. yeah. ask me if yo wanna come, alvin! so now waiting for the time to pass to go yueh li hse for her bdae!
HAPPY BDAE YUEH LI!
-lyssa
2:47 PM
